보고싶다.. 미치도록.. do yoÜ?

:)

2010-03-01T01:09:00.000-08:00

stop pretending. yeah, you got hurt? well, it's you.
oh wag mo rin akong gayahin, tangina.

update.

2010-02-22T02:45:00.000-08:00

time flies by so fast. i can't believe i'll be graduating from high school in a month or two. T.T i have been itching to get out of my present school for there, many problems, controversies and hardships faced me. i grew tired of them, but of course, i can't deny the fact that i'll be missing my alma mater.
studying in UPM next school year. i'm forced to attend their summer bridge program. so duh, no summer for me. :/

in the meantime, i'll be updating this blog about people, things, and other stuff that has REALLY happened to me after my long hiatus.
there's SLURPEE. an underclassman who's.. well. there. he's lame and totally not my type.
i've not been attending classes these days because i had a high fever. :/
foundation day, intrams, battle of the bands= HELL WEEK. but fun. :)
U-KISS IS DOMINATING MY MIND. :">
i love sir antonio gulane, but despise that one dude.
i am getting tired of studying. even thinking of it makes my head ache, srsly.
samsung corby. puhahaha.~

nicole made this. kudos to her.

listen to my heart.beat

2009-11-07T06:39:00.000-08:00

is it just me or some of 2PM's messages hit me? i teared up a little, in small hope of thinking of Jay will come back. :/

i'm hurt. srsly.

2009-11-02T01:59:00.000-08:00

i dunno what to think of this though. i really thought that this was a positive sign, that Jay MIGHT really come back for his fellow 2PM members and for all his fans. but when i saw the comment of a girl on FB, i got confused. she said that she thinks it implies that 2PM, although continuing as 6 members, will remain 2PM and will not give up [that's the heart thingy that still beats] and the clock says that 2PM will never be the same again without Jay.
I THEREFORE THINK THAT NOVEMBER 13, 2009 FRIDAY WILL BE THE WORST DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE.

they've released their single 'Tired of Waiting' and guess what? ...no Jay. :/
and in that cover, it read 'THE FIRST ALBUM 2PM' wtfh? :((

a survey? omg.

2009-11-01T02:18:00.001-08:00

»Jay Park«
Hey! Remember when we met?
I thought you were some guy.
Just a little boy who knew nothing of the world.
But as I stand here now, looking at you,
I know that this was just the beginning.
The beginning of my happy ending

1.Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, who do you want it to be?
-any of my fandoms. :))
2. Your boss tells you he/she will give you a $20 raise if you'll do your job naked, do you stay?
-i'll stay for a minute. punch his stupid face and walk away smiling.
3. Your boyfriend/girlfriend's ex calls and needs a tire change, do you let him/her go?
-don't care. if he goes, then fine.
4. Ever seen a ghost?
-nope. i'd like that.
5.Would you change your body?
-no, then i would be like, artificial.
6. A reason you would move to Iceland?
-I LOVE HIM! lol. Iceland in Hetalia is love!
7. A place you've lived that you miss?
-i don't miss living there, i like it here. :)
8. A person that you miss?
-there's so many of them. :))
9. A band/group you thought was cool when you were little?
-westlife. whoooo!
10.You have a nightmare, who's the first person you think to tell?
-my friends.
11. Wanna have kids before you're 30?
-yes. :)
12. A memory from high school?
-ALICE IN WONDERLAND.
13. Ever had a crush on one of your friend's parents?
-nope.
14.Naughtiest thing you've done?
-~~can't remember~~ don't want to remember.
15. Do you look more like your mom or dad?
-neither. :))
16.Something you've always wanted to learn how to do?
-bungee jump!
17. If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be?:
-UK! or maybe KOREA. :)
18. Where would you like to be in 10 years?
-korea. japan.
19. Something you learned about life this year?
-it constantly changes.
20.What do you want for Christmas?
-a new cellphone!
22. Last item you bought yourself?
-shoes. *smiles proudly*
23. What did you have for breakfast
-bread.
25. What's your ring tone?
-don't even have a cp.
26. How many hours of sleep do you get a night?
-if it's a weekday, 6 hours. on weekends, a lot. :)
27. Have you ever been tied up?
-nope. i think they tried once, but they were never seen again after that. :))
28. What do you wish you were doing right now?
-experiencing snow.
29. Last time you witnessed a fight?
-when we were 'babysitting' the Kab Scouts. :)
30. What was the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
-fundador. :))))
33. Do you like your hair pulled?
-no, what kind of a sick person would like that?
34. Name three places you would like to travel to?
-korea,uk,paris. :)
35.Would you date anyone at the moment?
-umm..it depends.
36.Favorite food?
-pizza. :))
38. Is bigger really better?
-no!
39. What do you think of Brad Pitt?
-he's a good.. actor.
40. Name a friend you have the most in common with?
-...
41. What color are your toenails?
-i don't color them. :)
42. Last person you talked with on the phone?
-alec?
43. Do you own anything with a skull on it?
-i think so.
44. Have you traveled to Europe?
-NOT YET!! BUT I WILL!
45. Last movie you watched in theaters and who with?
-my mom. HP6. :)
46.If you could be anything in the world what would it be?
-a flower. :)
47.Last sin committed?
-gluttony. :))))
48. Last board/card game you played?
-chess.
49. Leather or lace?
-leather.
50. Ever had a black eye?
-nope. however, i get 'kulitis' all the time. T.T
51. Where do you rent your movies?
-i don't rent them, my dad buys them.
52.Have you said I love you to anyone today?
-nope.

2009-10-29T18:11:00.000-07:00

"Q: What kind of messages are you replying to?
Mir: The ones with the most hearts in them
Chun Doong: We want to reply to all of them but, right now...
Mir: This message reads, 'Because of you, I can't go to sleep and I can study better. I'll think of you and study really hard. Oppa fighting! ♥'
What is your reply?
Mir: 'Think of me while you're studying and become a great person!'
CD: What is that?
Mir: [defensively] What?
CD: This message is the first one that I'll be replying to. It reads 'Chun Doong, come out. Over'
My reply is very straightforward: 'Chun Doong has come out. Over'
Q: A word to the fans?
Mir: Please send us a lot! Each and every one of them gives us encouragement and makes us happy.
CD: We'll reply whenever we have the time so please send us a lot. I think it will be fun for both us and the fans. Please send us a lot.

GO: I will be replying to a message that reads, 'Oppa, you look like a model. So charismatic~'
[GO's reply] 'Maybe I should have been a model...'
Q: What kind of messages do you really want to reply to?
GO: Questions that are a little different and fun... I like to reply to questions where my answers can be fun for them to read.
Joon: This message reads, 'Your abs are amazing! ♥'
Q: A word to the fans!
GO: Please send a lot [of messages] to MBLAQ on UFOtown. Even during our busy schedule, we will try our best to send as many replies as possible.
Joon: We only sleep 1 hour a day anyways. We'll just keep sending replies. Don't worry about not getting a reply and freely send messages to us. But, by any chance, if you happen not to receive one... please don't hate us. We'll visit the site frequently because it's fun.

SH: Hello, I am MBLAQ's leader Seung Ho.
Because of my schedule, I finished last today so i didn't get to take part today so I'm disappointed but ill try to take part later. please send lots of messages!"

2009-10-17T06:32:00.000-07:00

Lee Joon would catch every star in the sky,
just for me.

★ PARK JAEBEOM ★ is my trampoline,
NOT YOU and ONLY ME is allowed to bounce on him!
OH HO HO HO HO!

Changes.. ugh.

2009-10-09T03:01:00.000-07:00

our retreat lasted for 3 days and it was in tagaytay. it was memorable in a way that i'll never look at my friends the same again. things have changed, and so did i. during our stay there, i thought of things and ended up making choices i regret, but i don't care. it's for the good naman eh, since i'm going to be a college student soon. masyado kasi akong soft.

~~I WANT TO GET A HAIRCUT. badly.~~ i already did, and with it, my attitude changed.

i am such a pedophile. i can't stand it, but it seems that i can't give it up either. i'm trying hard to do so, believe me.

i STILL AND PROBABLY WILL FOR ETERNITY miss Jay Park. though i have fully accepted that Jay is no longer associated with 2PM, i can't deny the fact that whenever i see 2PM perform, my eyes will start looking for the 'Pink Grandpa' somewhere, and i will end up so disappointed to continue watching it any longer.

Oh Wonbin becomes alive again. and i'm VERY happy for him, for myself and my other primadonnas. though his voice may sound different, that's what to expect from a guy who haven't sang any song, oh i dunno, since he left fti maybe? i still love, support and accept him just for being himself.

There's been a rumor that Lee Minho will appear on Mnet Scandal. omfg. not again. and i have the hots for LEE JOON. MBLAQ RULES.

2009-10-01T05:06:00.000-07:00

My heart is with

omg. i can't believe what i'm doing now.
i'm looking up gruesome murders on yahoo, murderers on wikipedia and just read the top 10 most gruesome torture thingys. :]]
talk about being a sadist.

i hate to associate this entry with anything else, but the sad thing is, i'm tempted. i can't stand bloggers who try their best in speaking English, but ends up sounding like a mole rat. seriously, if you're grammar is not that good and if you're a filipino, have some dignity will you?! magtagalog ka na please. masakit sa mata ang blog mo.

ondoy?!

2009-09-28T20:37:00.000-07:00

oh, it's been a long time ei, blog?
well, it's been almost 4 days ever since the storm 'Ondoy' hit Philippines.
and why did it have to hit last Saturday?
i was in Rizal Coliseum that day, for the Milo Little Olympics was held there.
t'was a long story but when they announced that the game for the high school was on Sunday, i told my mom to leave early so she could do whatever she wanted at home.
she was very happy and took off. but after she left, the rain began pouring hard and it was getting flooded outside. about 2 hours later, another announcement was made.
the whole game was cancelled. T.T so, we were preparing our things so that we could leave, as we were doing so, the water outside was flooding higher. until sometime in the afternoon that water was coming in inside the building! i was beginning to get so worried about my mom, and it turned out that she was also stranded inside a bus. they couldn't go out of it either cause the flood was about up to their chest.
I, WITH MY COACH AND FRIENDS, SLEPT INSIDE RIZAL MEMORIAL COLISEUM.
that morning we left as early as 5am. the water was still high, but thank God, it was just above our knees. i got to ride on TOP OF A PEDICAB. haha. >:))
i got home at about 9am. i even heard FT Island was filming their MV at Cebu and they experienced the storm. boohoo, poor them.

ATASHINCHI NO DANSHI!! >:))
ahaha. my addiction with jdoramas has begun once more. :]]
cast:
* Horikita Maki as Mineta Chisato

Okura Family

* Kaname Jun as Okura Fuu
* Okada Yoshinori as Okura Takeru
* Mukai Osamu as Okura Sho
* Yamamoto Yusuke as Okura Masaru
* Seto Koji as Okura Satoru
* Okayama Tomoki (岡山智樹) as Okura Akira
* Kusakari Masao as Okura Shinzo (company president)
*fangirls over jboys now*

sorry but i can't get this scene out of my head:

chisato:...
sho: hey chisato, you know what?
chisato: ??
sho: i've never been dumped by a girl before, i have a 23 winning streak.. so i'm not going to take chances and confess to you. besides.. *takes a rock and throws it in a nearby bush* ..there's tattletales..
*out comes fuu, takeru, masaru, satoru and akira*
masaru: hey! you won in the "sauna game", at least confess to her!
akira: oh? sho won?
takeru: kiss her! kiss her!
*they all force sho to kiss chisato, teases him and eventually runs back inside the house leaving chisato alone*
chisato: tsk. it could've been his 24th win. *smiles*

i'm sure this is not 100% percent accurate, but you get the message. >:))

and remembering Gokusen 1:

Guy 1: Ojou is in love with you, but I will not give her up.
YK's love interest: Alright, i wouldn't have it any other way,
*a guy pops up behind them*
Guy 3: what? are you two going for her? does that mean that the three of us are rivals?
*sawada stands up somewhere in the front*
shin: sorry but..
make that four of us. *runs away*

lol, why do i get tingly over these kinds of confessions? :]]
UPDATE:
KAMPAI!~ (cheers!)
I have watched Gokusen 3 Special and Seigi no Mikata! *smiles* lol, this is such a short entry but I feel fulfilled, haha. i'm a fail. *laughs some more*

1000 paper cranes for jay:
part 1
part 2

pika-chuu!~

2009-09-22T00:57:00.001-07:00

2009.09.08 01:18
Fan: [TAEMIN] Catch my heart~♡♥♡♥♡♥♡♥♡
[TAEMIN] Understood...

2009.09.08 01:24
Fan: Have you slept? Must study, continues to close my eyesㅜㅜ.
[TAEMIN] Close your eyes now and then open it. Pikachu~

2009.09.08 01:25
Fan: [TAEMIN] My yearning for you is higher than the sky and sturdier than the earth!! Taemin, don't you miss noonaㅠㅠ
[TAEMIN] I am higher than the universe and sturdier than the earth ~ Keke

2009.09.08 01:27
Fan: [TAEMIN] Taemin ah, I dreamt of you yesterday. I should go buy lottery ;;^^;;
[TAEMIN] Kekeke. Ohoh challenge challenge!! Keke

2009.09.09 01:12
Fan: [TAEMIN] Taemin ahㅠㅠ Miss youㅠㅠ As much as the distance from the sky to the groundㅠㅠ What about Taemin？
[TAEMIN] Me. I am as big as the distance from the sun to earth~ Keke

2009.09.09 01:13
Fan: [ONEW] Short haired girls are specialㅠㅠ
[TAEMIN] Keke. It will be great if suitable~

2009.09.09 01:21
Fan: [Team] Oppa. I have been bitten by a mosquito ㅠㅠ Come help me catch mosquitoesㅠ?!
[TAEMIN] Kekeke. I don't know how to catch mosquitoes..??

2009.09.09 01:25
Fan: [JONGHYUN] Oppa is very good looking!!!!! Jjang jjang jjang!!
[TAEMIN] What about me——^?

2009.09.12 00:45
Fan: (TAEMIN) What other sport other than dancing is Team most confident about? ♥ It's Badminton for Onew oppa. Ke.
[TAEMIN] I am... Almighty sports man!!^^

2009.09.12 00:52
Fan: [TAEMIN] It's raining. Very cooling~ What is Taemin doing?ㅋㅋ
[TAEMIN] I am hatching some kind of evil plan.. Whahahahaha

so touching ---> song

The Seven Sins of The Civil Servant

2009-09-16T05:09:00.001-07:00

Thompson closed the door on the cruel hostile world. He had had the worst day in a very long time, but on the table stood a bottle of scotch. He walked gratefully over to it and collapsed on his small greyish blue couch. He poured himself a glass, when something unlikely happened. Unlikely things had been happening to him all day, but this one really took the biscuit. It was unlikely, not impossible, because he had almost had sex with a German spy with a growth disorder that had turned into a giraffe today, so impossible was completely out of his vocabulary. The Grim Reaper materialised in front of him and pulled out a large scroll.
‘Gumball?’
Thompson blinked. ‘What?’
‘Do you want a gumball?’
Thompson shook his head. ‘No, I’m fine, thanks.’
The Grim Reaper nodded and started to read from the scroll. ‘You have the right to remain pliant.’ he read in a bored, booming voice. ‘Anything you say can and probably will, lets face it, be used against you in a court of public saws. You have the right to an eternity. Should you be unable to afford a whole eternity, a handful of millennia will be appointed to you. These are the negative electric charges:
Sloth, sloth, you never work,
Everyone at the office thinks that you’re a jerk.
Envy, envy, you’re never content,
You hoard what you’ve stolen in a portable tent.
Vanity, vanity, comb in your hair,
When you pass a window you stop and stare.
Lust, lust, you make the ladies barf,
So instead you tried to make it with a giraffe.
Anger, anger, you hate your life,
That’s why you split up with your wife.
Greed, greed, you eat non stop,
That’s why you’re banned from the fast food shop.
Coveting, coveting, you got to admit,
This excuse for a sin is pretty shit.’
The Grim Reaper rolled up the scroll and glanced at Thompson appraisingly.
‘Tell you what. I’ll let you off for that glass of scotch.’
‘No.’ said Thompson immediately. He needed that scotch. He really needed that scotch. The Grim Reaper glanced around.
‘Ok. How about that air conditioner? It gets awfully hot in hell. you have no idea the bills Satan has to pay for central heating.’
‘Sure.’ replied Thompson, reaching for the glass of scotch. The Grim Reaper pulled it off the wall with an erratic jerk.
‘See you.’ he said, and vanished in a puff of acrid green smoke. Thompson drained the glass of scotch, suddenly feeling very chilly. Hew poured himself another glass. Then another. And another.

2009-09-16T04:21:00.000-07:00

someone speaks up for jay again..

I am a parent of someone that is close to Jaebum's age. Watching what has been happening these past few days, I have built up some confidence to say a few words.

I have been business partners with Jaebum's dad in Seattle and am a Korean-American who has been living here for 30 years. I have known Jaebum since he was a little kid and have watched him grow throughout the years. Also my kids have been going to school with him since pre-school and so they are quite close. Thus, I think I know a lot about Jaybum's family.

Jaybum's house in Seattle is near a beach called Edmonds and is in a prospective middle-class neighborhood. This house has been built for 40 years, but Jaebum has lived here ever since he was born for over 20 years.

In the parking lot aren't BMW's and Lexus's, but rather there are cars that are about 5-10 years old. Just recently they just leased a car from Hyundai Dealershop for an Elantra, but after Jaebum's situation, they had to return it.

In their house is a 37 inch Sony TV that has been there for 10 years. All the computers in their house are very old and about to break, and the best computer they have is a notebook that a fan had bought for Jaebum.

The reason I am telling you all this is because I wanted to show you how Jaebum's family life style is not fake nor ostentatious, but rather humble and normal for a middle-class family.

After Jaebum came back from Korea, about 2 days later Jaebum's dad told Jaebum that he should study music and went out and sweating from the weight of the it, bought and brought into the house a 15 year old electric Yamaha piano that was $300 just for Jaebum. Without any complaint, Jaebum took and practiced with that piano, and thinking of how I bought my son a Roland piano for $5000 made me so embarassed.

On Friday night, Jaebum's dad and I got together to drink some beer and talk until 3AM, and all of a sudden tears dropped from his eyes and he began to share. He felt so bad for Jaebum.

For the past 5 years, no one knows how much Jayeum suffered from frustration and hard work, and so many times when he so much wanted to go back to Seattle, he always fixed his mindset and practiced for long hours, but now right as he gained so much popularity, he escaped to Seattle in just 4 days, and that really breaks my heart. Coming home from Korea, for those long hours on the plane, how much did he have to suffer and think in his mind?

In the beginning of August, I remember when Jaebum came to Seattle for a quick visit. Because Jaebum's immature younger brother was not listening to him, I remember what Jaebum said to him.

"I want to go out and meet my friends like you and go out and have fun like you but do you know why I am going through all of this and working hard? Its because of you and our parents! Why can't you be more thoughtful of what you do!"

In the car I asked my daughter, who is the same age as Jaybum "Yuri! What does 'Korea is gay' mean?" "It means that Korea is stupid or annoying, we say it when we're tired or annoyed".

Even when my daughter and I fought when she went through her teenage years, she used the word 'hate' a lot. "Dad I hate you!" Just because she said that would I have to kick her out of the house?

During that time, I believe that Jaebum did not understand the Korean culture, and had a hard time adjusting, while the people who translated what Jaebum said on his Myspace translated in a very wrong way because they don't know that that is just how teenagers speak in America. I don't understand how what he wrote as a teenager has anything to do with betraying Korea in any way.

How can someone who really hated Korea work so hard for their family so they can live better lives?

Us Korean-American's do not see America as a place just for money. We think of America as a new start where we have more opportunities, while our hearts are still with Korea and we want Korea to thrive.

During the 2002 World Cup instead of watching it at home my friends and I went to a sports bar and watched it in order to spread interest in Korea and soccer. When Korea put in a goal we alls screamed for joy and the American people who had no interest in Korean soccer seemed interested.

Even during the WBC, instead of watching the Major League we urged the Americans to watch Korea's games and those poeple who have Nokia phones and not LG or Samsung, we went and talked to them on why they wouldn't use a good Korean phone.

Don't these little things show how much pride we have for Korea? Even more than the pride of those overseas, we feel like we have a lot of pride in our country. Because of what a teenager wrote 4 years ago, i don't think that it was right to accuse and point fingers at Jaebum when he didn't mean anything like that, and cause him to be kicked out of Korea. That is not called having pride in our country.
Everyone, I urge you all to take a step back and think of what has happened in the past week, and also i urge you to have a big heart and embrace our young Korean-American who is trying so hard to live out his life and give him another chance.

I am not asking for you to put out a red carpet for him, but all I ask is for you to help Jaybum not feel embarassed or guilty anymore, and instead help him think more comfortably and have a warm heart for him.

During these past few days when the netizens said biting remarks about Jaybum, I want to say thank you to Boom for standing up for him and being brave. Boom still calls Jaebum everyday to check up on how he is doing.

Right now, Jaebum's parents are in panic mode, and do not pick up the phone if it not someone they know.

Jaebum visited his old breakdancing studio when a black kid recognized him and put a camera up to his face and so he had to hurry up and just go home.

He hasn't even been able to go to the church he went to all his life because he's still embarassed and guilty and disappointed in himself, so he hasn't been going out anywhere and just been staying home.
Seeing all of this, I feel so bad for him and am heart broken.

Last saturday, my family and Jaebum's family went to a friend's Chinese restaurant in order to brighten everyones mood. Although he wasn't jumping for joy, being his first dinner outside since he came to Seattle, we had a good time and Jaebum's mood got a little better and more comfortable.

I asked him "Jaebum, do you wanna go back to Korea?"

"Yes..but I'm not sure."

happy birthday!

2009-09-15T02:57:00.000-07:00

Jung Eun Jung wrote on her CyWorld today:

Park Jaebum! (translator's note: she actually spelled it "Park Jaebeum", I suspect that it's a play on his name.)
If you don't come back from Seattle right now...
That one-shot we shot where you suffered in the hot bathroom just to scare your members!
I will cut it all out!

...that's what I want to threaten you with, but...
...I'm just a writer. Hehe.

----------------

yea, i officially turned 16 last september 14, which was yesterday.
and i know this bday will be memorable cause of the gifts i received,
especially the first one last september 8. anyone guess what it is? :]
it's jaebeom's departure.

Letter from Jaebum's friend in Korea

Hello this is Jaebum's friend who was in the same class with him and I would like to share how Jaebum lived at the time.

Jaebum moved to study at our class for his 3rd year in high school. There was nothing special. I just heard that he was a JYP trainee from USA. I regarded him as an ordinary student. At first, he could not adjust himself to Korean cultures and barely spoke Korean. Jaebum was not in acquaintance with friends and preferred to be alone. As time passed, he could finally get along with friends. We played basketball together. He seemed to be fond of physical education class the most. Since he had to part from his family and friends who he used to hang out and practiced dancing with in the States, he looked lonely at times. He was living by himself in a tough conditon as a trainee in Korea.

Jaebum had a lot of things to do. He usually practiced singing during his free time or writing rap lyrics. He loved to go to the gym the most. I remembered inviting him for lunch but he rejected and only ate food with protein nourishment. How pity he was then. We were in the same basketball team. The friends in our class used to sing birthday songs to him. When we graduated, Jaebum was trained full time at his company and one day he boasted to me that he was put into a group, 2PM and would be on national televisions. I knew that he worked so hard before he debuted with his first album.

Not only Jaebum, I heard that all JYP trainees and staff also worked so hard. Even though Jaebum had extreme tight schedules, during the second album promotion, he could come and join our alumni party. I was happy to see his confidence and shine coming from him which was different from the time he was still just a trainee where his future was in doubt. He told me that he liked Boom-hyung. Boom-hyung is a fun person who takes care of him so well. I knew that he was living a happy life at the time.

But, for the past few days, there were a controversial of Jaebum's offending comments from his myspace. All those efforts he put were shattered in the blink of an eye. I tried to call him because I was so concerned. He told me he was at the airport and about to leave for USA. I asked if he'll ever come back. He said how could he when so many people hate him this much...

As a friend of Jaebum, there is nothing I can do. I can only let him leave like that. His flight left at 6:30pm. I can only wish that he go back to have a better life with his family. Even in the US, I wish he still carry on and fulfill his dream. I would like to thank you all who loved my friend. Jaebum Fighting!

“Now I think I have become a real Korean”
“I'm proud to be Korean”
“The Republic of Korea”
“Korean people are like stars, they dress so well comparing to me I dress like a pauper. Oh no, yes I am a pauper.”
“I'm not familiar with English now, isn't it funny? Haha”
These messages were written by Jaebum in 2006.

Looking at those messages, you can see that his attitude has changed.
He said he was proud to be Korean and he truly love Korea.

Please believe him.
Please don't judge him only by the message he wrote when he was a struggling trainee (4 years ago)
Please...

dongwan & cherry filter supported jay too. thanks.
and.. uhh.. i don't know what i was supposed to write in this entry.

sowoneul malhaebwa.

2009-09-11T02:47:00.000-07:00

was it Japan who started the thing with the paper cranes?
the one wherein if you can fold up to a thousand cranes, anything you wish will come true?
i was thinking of learning how to do it.
and you know what my wish will be?
simple, i just want Jay to be happy.
yea, i won't wish for myself, I think he's the one who needs more support nowadays.

☆JAY PARK☆ doesn't like fangirls,
but he s t i l l found a place in his heart for me. ♥

oh and this is the reason why i love onew to bits:

Amidst of the criticisms against 2PM JaeBum, SHINee member Onew comes out to say, “JaeBum will definitelycome back” getting the attention from fans and netizens.

SHINee Onew has recently posted up a message to a fan about 2PM JaeBum who has left 2PM and also Korea on 8th September recently 4 days after the controversy from the revelation of his pre-debut messages posted on MySpace.

He wrote on UFOTown site, “JaeBum will definitely come back, himnae! 2PM is 7 members after all” when a fan posted a message to him “Oppa…What will happen to JaeBum, this is unbelievable”.

they really have big hearts. *talking about onew and jonghun which both defended jay*
jonghun has a scandal, and i am not angry as i expect myself to be. it's just that, i am remembering more of what he said to jay, and that proves he really is a nice guy.

UPDATE: even Isak and Eunhyuk. gaaah, that's why i love korean idols.

2009-09-10T03:45:00.000-07:00

WOW, 3 POSTS IN A DAY.

An Evil Pessimistic 2PM Fan Speaks On Jay.
By: koreanricegirl
Sep 9, 2009

This was the fastest scandal ever. I swear, I leave for a wedding with 2PM doing great, everyone loves them and four days later, everything’s fallen apart and Jay is leaving to Seattle most likely never to be seen again. And because it was so sudden, because it was so unfair, because it was just so sad, I started crying.

Jay’s the first real person I’ve ever cried for. Of course, I’ve cried for characters in movies and book and dramas and of course, I’ve cried for myself, but Jay’s the first to make me feel so pained for him that the tears came streaming down. And I always though fans who made such big deals about their idols were way over the top. I feel like such a hypocrite.

But in my defense, I’m not going to insist that he comes back. He left of his own will and I’ll respect that decision, however depressing it will be. I’ve read people’s thoughts on this, and chasingfivetwo from soompi has a good point: Jay Park is not the same person as Park Jaebum of 2PM. Jay Park doesn’t sing pop songs, wear makeup and tight pants. Even if you grow to understand and appreciate the culture, it doesn't necessarily mean you'll love it better than the one you grew up with. For Jay, he might not hate Korea as he once said anymore, but he’s probably still 17328948839 times more comfortable with the language and culture of America. And perhaps this was just more of the incentive to leave, rather than the reason. Maybe the reason Jay left so quickly was because he was tired of it all. I hope so, because it’s very possible he was just backed into a corner and put under so much pressure that he snapped. With Korea’s culture, a comment like “I hate Korea” or “Koreans are gay” isn’t about to fade away in a few weeks. It’ll follow him everywhere; the second he says something slightly controversial, people with bash him, and along with him, 2PM (saddest thing is, they were at the peak of their careers)

I really hope he just got tired and left to live a life he’s happier and more comfortable with. And I hope the netizens know it’s not just Jay’s career they’ve destroyed — they’ve completely obliterated 2PM itself. The members 2PM are famous because they’re so un-idol-like, because they’re so free with their words, to say the least. The way Jay left the group is, what I would call, traumatic. I highly doubt — No, I know that 2PM will start to be so much more careful with their words that they won’t be as energetic as before. Because people have left groups before and groups have disbanded before, but they all chose to leave or disband themselves for their own reasons. They made a decision because they wanted to, not because of circumstances that forced them to. Even if Jay had other reasons like I hope he does, it can’t be denied that everything happened because of those four comments on myspace. (And I don’t mean to say that Jay wasn’t wrong or stupid in writing that, but they were hardly anything. They weren’t full blown rants on Koreans, just a few words. Compared to some of the things people say on soompi’s RANT thread, they’re really nothing though entirely slang.)

On the suicide petition, spazzes pretty much said it all. When so many actors and singers have killed themselves, how can they still speak of suicide? And these same netizens think America is a crude place with no respect for people nor shame. Yeah, at least we don’t tell Britney or whoever to go die because she’s done drugs. We might curse her, think she’s stupid, and want her locked up, but at the very least, we know the weight of the words “go kill yourself.” At least our suicide rates are lower than several Asian countries because we don’t make honor such a big deal. There are time when I really hate things about my country, but these netizens are wonderful in instilling pride in my nation.

I think everyone agrees on this though: Jay deserves to be happy after giving up so much. And I wish him the best on his future endeavors, whatever they maybe. Also, I hope he puts up another myspace or facebook account (youtube?). It was always fun to have that connection (reading his friends comments LOL), bit of a pity it was all deleted because of a few controversial words.

BaekGa of Koyote said it best, in my opinion:
“The people who almost drove me insane with the pervert accusations about two months ago have done it again. They have sacrificed a co worker, and a good friend. You kill with your fingers where no one can see you, and they have made sad, unnecessary sacrifices, but you say it doesn’t even affect you in the heart. All I can say is that I am truly scared.”

“People make mistakes. He was a young kid going through a tough time and yet they made it seem like he still had bad thoughts in his mind…The entertainment business to the naked eye can be joyful and satisfying, but the mental and the physical pain we have to go through before we get to that point is indescribable. I wish you guys can stop…If he made the same mistakes twice, then he is to blame, but if you give him enough time to elaborate on his actions, he will become a better person. Finally, I know you all might think that I am writing with no credibility, but this is solely my opinion and I stand by it. But before you curse or judge me, look into yourself and see how clean of a person you are first.”

I’ve accepted it now, even though I wish it weren’t true. There was no one like Jay who spoke English and watched videos on youtube along with the rest of us fans outside of Korea, and I doubt that there won’t be any for some time after this whole ordeal.

박재범 안녕. Jay Park, welcome home. ♥

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I read JYP's statement on Jay. His story seem so unreal, like something taken out of a book or movie. It reminds me of a Japanese drama by the name of Nobuta wo Produce that deals with change and friendship. Honey and Clover also applies somewhat. Both have the type of ending that makes you frustrated because the characters that were changed and happy seem to stupidly decide to throw all their happiness away and go their own separate ways. It makes sense -- they have to apply what the others have taught them and create their own happiness in life -- but for those of us who are so used to happy endings (in stories, anyway), it's incredibly aggravating.

I don’t think Jay should come back; I don’t really think he will. I think JYP and 2PM "healed" him, made him a better person, but now it’s time to take what he learned and use it to make his own life. Maybe this is awful for those who want to see him again, on variety shows and whatnot, but I think Jay needs to think things through and use the maturity he gained. Isn't that what life's all about? Learning and building upon what you've learned. Maybe he won’t want to enter the celebrity business again. Maybe he’ll want to start afresh. Go to school again, and live a normal life. Maybe he in fact, will come back to 2PM and like it says in the title, I’m just being an evil pessimistic fan. But my intuition says that 2PM is just a small chapter in his life that comes after AOM. And that it’s time for change, it’s time for a new generation, it’s time for a new star to shine, and for a new chapter in Jay’s life.

*sorry, but after the previous post, i kind of blacked out.
i can't type anything with sense. i know copying blogs is bad, but this one is really.. uhh.. i don't know, a slap on my face. i srsly want him back, but seeing the vid of his return to Seattle, i had wanted him to stay there FOR GOOD.

2009-09-10T03:31:00.000-07:00

i look like i'm a stalker, but i'll still update about Jay.

THESE WERE TESTIMONIALS FROM HIS FRIENDS WAY BACK:

Hello
I’m Park Jaebum’s high school mate. Although we weren’t in the same class, he was a friend I cared very much about.
I can’t write very well, so T-T

The Jaebum I knew was more sincere/honest than anyone else and a kid with many dreams.

Usually people who dream of becoming stars show off but Park Jaebum wasn’t any different from any other Korean high school student. He was just good at exercising and dancing, loved music. At first, none of us could imagine that he was a JYP trainee.

And no matter how tired he was or how much he had to train, he still faithfully came to school.
He did all his work and as this attitude of learning was really beautiful, he was a kid that the teachers really looked after and cared for.

Although his Korean was awkward and he was far from his parents and lonely in another country, even when he looked tired or upset, he’ll still help us friends and joke around with us as normal. Every time he did that he’ll say he’s okay and give us a friendly punch going ‘what sup yo man’, smiling shyly.

When I first saw him, he was very quiet, and down, and just looked as if life was very tough for him. As time passed, because I became envious of this diligent boy that was working hard towards his dreams, it seemed like I was studying harder thanks to him.

And I was a little chubby, so whenever I saw Jaebum, I would tell him that he has a great body and that I was envious. Then he told me “I’ve been looking at you. You’re tall so first, let’s study then go exercising with me and we can both lose weight together” and praised me by saying “You look much better after losing weight and getting a good body”.

There was a couple who just passed the 1000 day mark of dating and the guy asked Jaebum to sing a song and plan the celebration event. Jaebum made a nice rap and took care of the event.

Of course Jaebum was wrong, but to us, his friends, Jaebum was never the bad kid you guys have made him out to be. Please try to understand that.

I was really upset so I went out drinking with my friends. Although I don’t know when we’ll meet again, Jaebum will always been in our hearts, the guy always running towards his dreams. That is Jaebum.

I really wish that everyone wouldn’t hate him and try to understand that Jaebum was indeed really lonely in another country but he worked hard and did his best to fit in.

Even a guy would be jealous of this cool guy Jaebum.
Jaebum, I wish you would rise from this incident and become an even greater person

#2 Posted on Hottest fancafe

Hello. I’m Jaebum’s classmate from school.
Firstly, I would like to tell everyone what kind of life Jaebum led.
Jaebum transferred into our school during the third year of high school.
He wasn’t special, looked like any other student and we heard that he came to be a trainee in JYP after receiving a phone call in America. He couldn’t adapt to the Korean way of life then and his Korean wasn’t good.
At first, he was having trouble adapting and liked being by himself.
As time passed, he made friends and played basketball with him and was a friend that loved exercise period the most.
But away from his friends and family, after leaving his friends who danced and played with him to come here, he passed his trainee life in loneliness.

I remember he always had a lot of things to prepare, studied music diligently, was always writing rap lyrics and building his body. When we said “Let’s go eat lunch” during lunch time, he would say he was fine and only ate protein.
Although life was tough for him, he would celebrate our birthdays with us and come together to play basketball with us. This was his high school life. After graduating, going out into society and entering university, I was proud when I finally saw him performing on TV with a group called 2PM. I heard that he worked really hard to get the first album out. Not just Jaebum but the whole JYP family worked hard. Soon, the second album came out and he was really busy. We had a school gathering somewhere during album promotions and ate together. When I saw Jaebum again, he was more cheerful and more confident than before, which was really great. He told us Boom-hyung treated him well, was nice and how he liked him.

So just when I was thinking that he looked like he was doing fine, news surfaced about the criticism he was getting because of the words he typed on his myspace page and in a short moment, everything Jaebum worked hard for collapsed.
I called him, told him not to worry too much, but after 2 days, he announced he was leaving. I was really worried so I called him and he said he was already at the airport and leaving for America. When I asked if he was coming back, he said “How do I come back when the people here hate me so much?”

I was upset that I couldn’t do anything as Jaebum’s friend and had to send him of like that… He left on the 6:30 plane. I hope Jaebum will have a good time with his family in America, and fulfil the dreams that he was intent on fulfilling, even in America.
Thank you for the many people how showed love to my friend Jaebum during this period.

Jaebum-ah, cheer up!

#3 2PM’s gallery

Although it’s amusing that I’m writing a message in such a place when I’m so old I didn’t know any other fancafes besides this one so I’m leaving a message here. I’m Jaebum’s high school friend Seo JaeHyeok (I can’t reveal my school, right?)

Actually, we weren’t really friends. I only ever studied when I was in high school..being prudent. I’m now a university student, and because I’ve been preparing for my examinations, I don’t really use the internet but I’m using it now because of the news Jaebum….just thinking about this whole thing as a classmate in his high school gets me frustrated. I would like to share something I know about Jaebum and hopefully it’ll help everyone look at him differently.

Being prudent/cautious, I haven’t got many friends, and only cared about my studies. But because my friends were really nice in high school, I never felt lonely. Jaebum was really nice to me too. During the English assessment, everyone will pair off with their good friends but when I didn’t have a partner, I’ll was just practicing by myself in the school’s office during English period when Jaebum came and offered to be my partner (Please don’t misunderstand. Jaebum was a diligent student even in school. He wasn’t a student that used his trainee status as an excuse to skip school).

And. When he got his Korean ID card, he was so proud of it. (When I used the term ‘Korean ID card’, I confused many of you… it wasn’t really a Korean ID card, more of a domestic residence card for overseas Koreans..but Jaebum kept calling it his Korean ID card so I wrote it as that.. It wasn’t a Korean ID card…but it really looked like one..) He put his Korean ID card (domestic residence card) in his wallet where it could be most clearly seen.

I don’t have a way with words so I can’t really write the things I want to say about Jaebum down. Such a pity.. Although it’s been a long time since we last contacted each other As a person who knows how much Jaebum had to go through to become a singer, I feel really sad. I wish he’ll come back cheerfully

Thank you for reading this at such a late time.

#4

I’m Jaebum’s classmate during his third year of high school. I’m writing this not to cover up for the words he wrote on an online community nor am I rationalizing his behavior. I would just like to give everyone a little more understanding to Jaebum as a person and cheer Jaebum on.

When Jaebum first transferred to our school, he looked like those characters you’ll see in a manhwa and gave off a cold image with his thick eyebrows, single eyelids, wide eyes and fair skin. Although he was short, his firm body and solid muscles made him the envy of the boys in our class. When we asked why he came to Korea, he said he was a trainee in JYP and dreamt of becoming a singer.

Jaebum wasn’t ashamed of those words, and during lesson time or break time, I often saw him writing rap lyrics, humming songs, practicing raps and beatboxing. He would train too late at night yet come to school on time and he would never reveal how tired he was or what a hard time he was going through. I don’t know whether it was because he couldn’t fit in yet or because he felt like doing it but Jaebum didn’t eat much during lunch period. One day, when everyone was going off to eat during lunch period, Jaebum was doing pushups while listening to music and I noticed a crumpled notebook open in his bag. He wrote Park Jaebum in his broken hangul and in round brackets, wrote Jay Park. I realized then, that he missed America a lot. Yet it is heartwarming when I see him writing his name in Korean and his awkward Korean.

Although the Korean he wrote in his notebook had bad grammar, he wrote quite a lot of rap lyrics. Jaebum was a thorough kid, he never slacked off during training and trained himself well. If he ever made a mistake, he would reproach himself and get all guilt ridden. I cheered him on when he debuted as 2PM’s leader although we were never that close. I have never thought that he wasn’t qualified to be their leader.

Sometimes he would show everyone his B-Boy skills during break time, or he would just burst into rap or beatboxing in school. When I see that I wonder how long he practiced to do all this things so naturally. And the huge blisters on his hands are the scars of the tough training he underwent. Jaebum was especially sensitive to the mistakes that he made so I have an inkling of how he must have felt when this whole thing blew up. To this kid who still doesn’t know Korean culture very well suddenly becoming a hot issue on the internet, where countless of reports and rumours are written about him, showing the bad side of the netizens and how Koreans blow things up, he must have been really guilt ridden about this whole issue, afraid that he will ruin 2PM’s image, afraid that it might leave scars on the 2PM members who were as precious to him as life itself. I can imagine the fear that kept piling up within him the past few days. That’s why he left the 2PM members whom he loved and treasured like life itself.

Jaebum sometimes talked about his younger brother (Jaehan?..I can’t remember his name) but he didn’t go into details so I’m not sure but whenever it was his brother’s birthday, he would write a letter with some scribbling/drawings. Even when he joined university, the place Jaebum would go back to on days like his brother’s birthday wouldn’t be the loving arms of his family but to the practice room or the lonely hostel. Throughout all these, Jaebum never showed how tired or discontent he was so when news of him criticizing Korea came out, I was shocked.

Whenever he wrote his name on books or things he never wrote “Jay” but ‘Park Jaebum’ in his awkward handwriting. When I think of the cheerful Jaebum in high school now, I get really upset and frustrated. I will always support Jaebum. Although I don’t approve of the things Jaebum wrote on the online community, I do believe that Jaebum’s attitude towards Korea has improved. When Jaebum returns, I’ll meet him in the airport smilingly.

Whether you criticize or not it’s up to your own opinion. You might think it’s wrong for me to speak up but everyone, you have hurt his friends too with the words you typed so lightly. I know that you’ve also criticized 2PM’s fans, Wooyoung and his classmates for covering up for his crimes (although I hate to use such a word to describe it). But if your own friend was suffering in this situation would you just stand back? Of course I’m not praising Jaebum for what he did, but as a friend, and as someone who knows that Jaebum isn’t like that, shouldn’t I cheer him on? Do you just keep quiet, not defending a friend when he’s in trouble?

What I’m most afraid of is that Jaebum, who has begun to like Korea, now leaves with an even worse impression of Korea than before. You can say anything you want about what I wrote but I won’t delete this message. I hope Jaebum would cheer up and come back as 2PM’s leader once again showing everyone your cheerful smile.

Jonghun's message..

2009-09-10T03:00:00.000-07:00

Cr: candyjae + picdu @ fticn

TRANS:
Firstly, scandal...
once again displaying something (?) side of choi jonghun
do not be too fury about scandal, anyway, all tv programmes are like that, everyone should be clear about this?
This is my first time filming scandal. when i first heard it, i went "oh yeah!"
but i still thought about our 110000 prims... will they lose trust in me...
when filming the show, i have to consider the feelings of the audience, it's really tiring.

ah, also
this time round, prosecuting park jaebeom's matter
i said something wrong, really sorry about that...
i get into troubles like that everytime... aish...

everyone got to be strong, hope that everyone would strive hard in their lives.
up till here, a very apologetic jonghun

CREDITS: leonger @ jonghunfied

??? P.2

2009-09-09T02:44:00.000-07:00

Everybody is searching for that thing
that will change their destiny.
I'm done searching.
Because for me, that "thing" is YOU,
[JAY PARK]

owell. where else can i vent my anger but here in this blog?
sorry for being so hyped up about this issue. and about this post, i'm just trying
out what i saw on multiply cause it enlightened me so much.

Amidst of all my schedules in schools like my upcoming exams, trainings, piles of homeworks, deadline of our school paper drawing near, my birthday coming up, and carrying the burden of being an only child, now another issue about one of my fandoms pops out.

Park Jaebeom or mostly known in America as Jay Park, born in the states, ventured into the entertainment world when he was accepted as a trainee in JYPE and a member on a 7-member idol group called 2PM. Jay, being simple-minded, cared less about the world. Of course naman, who would care, when you're miles away from home, with no family or relatives, trying out your luck on a foreign country, especially Korea.

Compared sa Pinas, extreme ang Korea. We also have haters, every country has them, but ours is tame. Haters don't go around holding signs like, "Die you a**hole!" or maybe "Go to hell you b*tch!", right? We anti-fans prefer hating silently, like editing artist's photos making them look fat sort of revenge, cause we know that they're people too and they can be hurt. Korea's haters however, feed on people, not literally of course. But pretty much like cannibals for they're the type that bashes celebrities until their brain pops out or until you run away from your house screaming like a baby in frustration. So because of that, I envy my country more.

Maigi pa nga si Jaebeom eh(yea, i got the exact first words). He doesn't have scandals like those of Katrina Halili. But still, Halili, though banned or removed from some advertisements, after a while, a company will be willing to offer new guestings, products to be endorsed by her. Si Jaebeom naman, konti na nga lang ang shows niya, siyempre kasi pahinga pa nila at MALAPIT NANG LUMABAS UNG BAGONG ALBUM NILA (na i was looking forward to pa naman, pero obvious naman na maiiba.. edit ng boses ni Jaebeom, cut ng mukha nia sa CD cover, mga ganun), pinilit at pinetisyon pa siya na umalis. Where's the humanity in there?! Another comparison is, sa scandal ni Halili, everyone was fully aware that she did it in an age na maco-consider ng marami na mature, eh si Jay? It was way back 2005, mga 18/19 palang siya nun, and plus, what can you expect from a boy who's homesick and to emphasize lang ulet: A BOY?! Plus, tao lang siya, he's not a God.

And I'm betting my whole entire and only life na hindi lang si Jaebeom ang nakapagsabi ng ganun sa sariling bansa. I may have have said it without me being aware that I did. Pinoy artists even tend to say wrong things while on TV, and the worst punishment they get is probation/suspension to appear on TV FOR A LIMITED TIME. Sure, they may be scrutinized, but umabot ba to the point na sinabi ng mga tao na magpakamatay na siya? NO. A BIG NO.

And from all the apology letters I've read on the net, I'm 100% sure he's sincere in what he says. Talagang yung mga netizens, who are cowards by the way, ang may matitinding paninindigan na tama sila. They don't even show their face, they just hide behind their PC screens. Not a nice way to fight, yea. Do they not know that Korea won't be as famous as it was before than now na sumulpot yang mga singers na yan?! I, for one, don't even give a damn about that country before I encountered idol groups. Foreigners don't appreciate your idiotic culture, they admire your sincere intentions to bring entertainment to the world. Remember that.

Now, let me make this clear. I'm just a fangirl, a pissed one, to be exact. And one who uses up all her time typing this nonsense. Yea, they don't pay me to do this, neither do they know it too. But sa pagmamahal ko sa Kpop (notice how people say they love Kpop and NOT Korea) ngayon, not only do I treat them as idols & fandoms, I treat them as babies. I'm like a mother who doesn't want her baby to be harmed and touched by soiled fingers.

Whatever those stupid netizens might say, I still support Jaebeom so much and will continue to accept his mistakes, because hey, I make mistakes din diba?

yan, i finished ranting. okay. but i'm not even half relieved.

???

2009-09-07T14:38:00.000-07:00

{{PARKJAEBEOM}}
he is everything to me,
the unrequited dream,
the song that no one sings,
the unattainable.
he's a myth that I have to believe in,
all I need to make it real is one more reason.
i'd do anything to have him to myself,
just to have him for myself.

oh and fuck you korea. just fuck you.
fuck you for bashing all your artists, it's what makes you famous you stupid netizens.
if it wasn't for them, korea's plain bullshit.
yea, i'm mad.
jay left for seattle this day. BECAUSE OF YOU NETIZENS.
you don't know how much i hate you now. and though i like korean singers, i hate your country cause you all stink. literally and inside.

Park Jaebum himself and JYP confirmed his departure from 2PM.

On September 8th 11:59PM, Jaebum wrote on his fancafe "Hello, I'm 2PM's JaeBum. I'm sorry for giving you my last greeting through this letter. I think it will be hard for me to see you all on stage because of my sorry heart. I'm really sorry to everyone, and I'm even more sorry to the fans who have shown me love.
From today, I will leave 2PM.
2PM boys, I'm really sorry to the boys and I'm sorry I couldn't be strong as a leader and a hyung and have to leave like this.
However, I hope you will be more cool and charming.
Again, I'm sorry."

Jaebum said "I am sorry to everyone, especially to the fans who loved me and stuck by me. From today I will break away from 2PM"

JAebum finally wrote "I am very sorry to the 2PM guys and to others that I couldn't be a good enough leader and hyung. I apologize again."

JYP Entertainment also confirmed through a phone interview with Newsen that the departure of Jaebum from 2PM is indeed true.

Hearing about his departure from 2PM, one of the biggest and most popular idol groups, there was lots of commotion and distress from netizens.

One person said "Jaebum's actions were indeed wrong but he did apologize and did all he could. I am very worried about how the fans will react."

and well. you love him after he left? ugh.

After brewing up criticism of speaking ill of Korea, messages filled with love for Korea were found late from leader Jaebum who willingly left 2PM, and fans are feeling regret.

In each fan site, and through internet notice boards Jaebum’s message in 2006 to his friends in America through his myspace were "I want to stay in Korea 1 more year” “Not as a JYP(trainee) but I want to spend it as a Korean” and others saying that Korea was his ‘motherland’ and words saying how life in Korea was good were left.

It’s regretful that Jaebum is suddenly withdrawing within a mere 4 days of Jaebum’s ‘Hate Korea’ picture captures that were revealed on the 5th.

On top of that, when Jaebum visited Seattle, USA from late July to early August for vacation, in an interview at a Christian church, he spoke well about his life in Korea, making this news even more regrettable.

Officials in the industry are also expressing their regret over Jaebum’s withdrawal. One music program official said “The regret of the withdrawal is as big as how 2PM’s leader held together the center”. Another program official said that “With leader Jaebum’s withdrawal from 2PM, even if 2PM continues their activities with 6 members, it will never be the same”.

Jaebeom went back to Seattle to sort his feelings out, ILYSM and you know that. and i'll support you just like i support wonbin. 2PM without you is nothing.

F(x) FTW!

2009-09-03T15:15:00.000-07:00

I LOVE YOU AMBER!! ..and Victoria. :]

2009-09-01T04:39:00.000-07:00

「 MIURA HARUMA 」
Brings out my inner fangirl

i am just freakin' tired.
all i can afford to do is sit in front of my PC and type. i don't even move much.
ahh, curse this month of September!! T.T so many things to do every week, especially this week. gaaah, just punch me guys. anyone out there. but i am not guaranteeing that you will still be alive after you punch me. i have fast reflexes. :]
my birthday is coming up, and i feel that before that day comes, i have to suffer so much. new seat plan, new groupings, all I see is new things. we also need to finish the school paper. argh.
CAN I JUST DIE AND BE REBORN ON OCTOBER? :]]

Shinee UFO replies:
[FAN] I'm right behind you..........
[ONEW] Behind me is the wall.

[FAN] I eat chicken at least once a week~ That's who I am~
[ONEW] I'm coming.

2009.08.31 00:08
Fan: [ONEW] Jinki oppa! Got tempted by fried chicken at night. Want to eat?
[ONEW] Of course.

[FAN] Hm, oppa, strawberry toothpaste is too sweet; let's invent a toothpaste that taste like chicken!!
[ONEW] No No No No chicken is for eating only.

2009-08-20T02:40:00.000-07:00

R o m e o & J u l i e t
E d w a r d & B e l l a
LEE JINKI & ISABELLE
♥

August is a very hectic month for me. i have tons of tests, and my brain is really fried.

anyways, since i'm free temporarily, i'll tell you all about it:
i took the UPCAT. but actually, i think i failed.
next was our periodical exams, which i think i flunked too. T.T
this coming sunday is my entrance exam in UST, which.. i'll fail.
on monday is our interest test, the most easiest test by far. i think.
tuesday, mock exam.
wednesday, is our NCAE. and i heard from my classmate that some actually fail them. so, in return, they can only take vocational courses.
on thursday, the worst day by far, i'll not go to school. i'll be dead. literally. *knocks on wood if there's any, which i doubt it*
and then i'll have to wait for september, which will be the last month you'll see my butt this big.
`but amidst of all those exams, i still have time for internet. of course, i can't live on television alone. :]

i'm loving Miss No Good, it's really entertaining. and since i know BOF by heart, i can't help but laugh at the tagalog subtitles, it's really nice but their expressions kinda don't fit.

i'm liking Shinee more. oh and ANOTHER TREASURE WILL ARRIVE TOMORROW. gaah! it's actually my present for myself for my bday.

and oh yea,
i'm a noona. finally.

mixed.. whatever.

2009-08-15T06:23:00.000-07:00

who is the cutest?

this MV is sad. now i really don't want them to disband. :[
micky's so <33333333!

oh and this picture is scary.
it made me look at it for about 10 times before i was convinced it's not jiyoung's hand.

macho? :]]

2009-08-09T14:21:00.001-07:00

『Cho Kyuhyun』
☆ If I had one wish,
It would be for you to live in happiness. ☆
♡ And if I had two wishes,
I would want to be the one you smile for. ♡

Leeteuk : yesterday after exercising, suddenly siwon said he wanted to go han-gang(river) at 2am.

Eunhyuk : at dawn?

Leeteuk : yes... so siwon went to there by his small motorcycle and i drove my car.

Eunhyuk : but that time, it was raining.....

Leeteuk : yeah...in the rain...siwon said ' hyung! i'm macho!' and he kept riding his motorcycle...
anyway, he arrived there before me, and he called me ' hyung where are you? why are you late?'
He thought i was already there and he started dancing in front of a car . he thought that car was mine...

Eunhyuk : OMG... that was same model as yours....

Leeteuk : yes... he kept saying 'hyung get out! get out!' and was dancing...
and he thought ' oh my dance is not enough...' and was dancing harder....

Eunhyuk : he didnt know who the person inside the car was because the window were tinted.

Leeteuk : yeah, and he said i didn't get out , so he knocked the window and said 'hyung why don't you get out!!'
and the window opened with a suprised lady!! she was really surprised " OMG!!!!!"
and he ran away~~~~

Eunhyuk : OMG, how embarrassing.... why was he doing that...kkk really funny
i always enjoy stories about our members. they are doing really funny things~~

fanatic much?

2009-08-05T04:07:00.000-07:00

Eunhyuk and IU singing a song that Jonghun and Hongki sang. [which was supposed to be a duet, so jonghun dressed up like a girl]. Don't they look good together? *grins*

all i really have to say is
Lee Jinki/Onew i love you
end of story.
♥

credits go to LJ. :]

Sanma Akashiya’s “Karakuri Terebi” held a contest last month in which 10,000 of Japan’s biggest Harry Potter fans competed for a chance to travel to the UK and interview the stars of the new Harry Potter movie. As it is a comedy show, they intentionally picked the strangest fans as finalists. A girl named Kana was the grand prize winner, and here are partially subtitled clips of her meeting Rupert Grint (Ron Weasley) and Daniel Radcliffe (Harry Potter).

The best part of this interview is her obsession with Rupert’s eyelashes, which she touches with amazement. She also gets a sniff of his wonderful smell.

No sniffing here – only some really weird face-touching. Note that the person responsible for translating Daniel’s answers into Japanese made the subtitles say “this girl’s feelings are so real (genuine)” when Daniel was actually describing the situation as “surreal.”

chicken anyone?

2009-07-30T03:32:00.000-07:00

EVERYBODY CHICKEN!

[[CHOI JONGHUN]]
For a long time, I've been living, having forgotten of you
For a while, I thought I was doing fine
However I started to realize it as time passed by
That I am nothing without you
At that time, if only we had been a bit more mature
If only we knew how we would be right now
I have no confidence in overcoming these endless regrets
So I've had to just repress them
One year has passed like that

so many things happened since the last time I posted here.
though I don't know why I'm so affected, but Cory Aquino died on August 1st.
the opening of ISBVL was at our school and i saw some past classmates.
THE UPCAT WAS ON AUGUST 1ST TOO, AND HELL, I FAILED. [the only good thing about it was the people i took the exam with, there was this ever-so-generous girl named Josielyn and we were together until the exam ended and a korean guy wearing formal clothes. haha.XD]
i hate being a CAT officer so much.
oh and, really 'maknaes' are to die for.XD

Kyuhyun’s Cyworld Diary Entry 2009.07.29

2009.07.29 수 Wednesday 21:54[맑음]
지금은 짜증 (Ill humoured)

Ah….Really………………..-

Usually when I see stuff online concerning me

I would laugh thinking that that was how they expressed their care

I felt that all that nonsense that was created were made for jokes..

After ignoring it numerous times..

This time I will only mention it once, and not speak about anything regarding this again.

Although my reaction is really embarrassing

With 1% of doubt and 99% of confidence, hitting the keyboard repeatedly

Letting me.. And others get hurt..

Is it just.. Looking at those articles

It really feels just like writing novels..

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Ah.. Why is it this kind of content after updating in such a long time ㅡㅡ

[YEA, WHAT KIND OF AN ENTRY IS THAT? LOL.]

Everyone knows how much I fangirl CHOI JONGHUN,
but just few knows how much he fanboys me...

2009-07-27T04:56:00.000-07:00

jenjjang. :]

2009-07-07T03:41:00.000-07:00

『Cho Kyuhyun』 will always be my one true love...
But I still love you, 『Choi Jonghun』 ♥

as usual, from sosweetpain@LJ.
okaaay. i'm renewing the contents of this blog entry.
masyado na akong maraming iniintindi ngayong linggo. baket nga ba ako nagtatagalog? sapagkat english campaign ngayon ang pinaiiral sa aming paaralan. at kahit papano, nais ko namang mahasa ang aking bokabularyo sa wikang tagalog. wuu~ nosblid din un.

MGA PROBLEMA KO:
1. yung colors [para sa mga COCC&CAT alam nio na un, para sa hindi nka2alam, oh well..] namin sa skul. kami po kasi ang host ng ISBVL ngayong year nato. ang problema, mukhang sasablay kami. kaya halos every 2 days nagpapraktis kami. pati nga sabado nasama na eh. --- kasama narin sa number 1, dahil nga mai praktis sa sabado, hindi ako makaka-attend sa TKD. MAY ATTENDANCE YUN. oh pano nako? dalawang araw nakong absent. demerit naman un dun.
2. malapit na ung exam. next week na. tapos next next week nman, competition sa tkd poomsae na mukhang hindi pa ako makakasama, tska start ng ISBVL [na kamusta naman, ang laki paren ng problema ko] kung saan magcocolors kame. next next next week, august 1, exam ko sa UPCAT. buhay pa kaya ako nun? T.T
3. ang dami kong gustong bilhin, as in MARAMI. ung USB tska headphones sa PodWorx na kinokonsider ko na 'necessity' sa buhay ko, external hard disk & UPS sa pc na mas kailangan ko pero mas mahal, rubber shoes na mai 'dila' [wag mo nang intindihin kung hindi mo makuha, siraulo], MINI ALBUM NG 2NE1, photobook tska CD ng FT ISLAND!! enge naman ng pera oh. :]
4. ang dami kong kagat ng lamok sa paa. soooooooobra. para bang gnawa nila akong hapunan, nagkaroon ng left over at pinagpyestahan pa. ung ganun.
5. ung sa july 25 pa ng group 5 sa mapeh. sing or dance? do we care? not YET.

2PM, who has released popular hit songs "Again & Again" and "I Hate You", will be taking a break soon. Their last stage will be on SBS Inkigayo on July 19th, revealed by a source of 2PM. After that stage, their activities for their second single "Time For Change" will end. The source also added, "After ending all promotional activities, [2PM] will prepare for their next album as well as taking a rest and some members have individual activities planned to show."

omg. mamimiss ko sila. pero i'm glad na magpapahinga sila. grabe, wala na yata silang tigil sa mga perfs tska solo guesting. finally! pero, kanino nako magfafangirl? :[[ haha.XD lahat sila nakahiatus! :]]

finished watching: Maou!!! starring Ikuta Toma. :D and a dude from Arashi. [it really is nice. and the ending was good. haha.XD i liked it.]
listening to: She Wants It-Suju. kyuhyun's voice is <3333333.
EVERY HOUR WOUNDS, THE LAST ONE KILLS. anyone care to explain?

ever-so-FML.

2009-07-01T19:22:00.000-07:00

{OhWonbin} = fairest princess of them all.

{Jo Kwon}
is my boy toy

PROPOSAL DAISAKUSEN ROCKS! i finished it! :>
but.. that's not the point.
It's my father's birthday today. And yesterday was Leeteuk's birthday and we didn't remember it. I didn't, cause i was busy trying to stay alive during class. I was absent from class today cause well, i'm sick. And besides the fact that I can't even stand, I really wanted to go to school. There's so much that I could miss in a day. And, they don't treat me like a sick person anyways, I feel like I'm the parent here. Someone goes around spilling coffee, doesn't notice it, and I go fetching a towel to wipe it all off. Things like that. Supposed to be, they find the thermometer for my temperature, but heck NO, they made me stand up [and i was sleeping at that time] to get it myself.
I NEVER WANT TO BE SICK EVER AGAIN.

2009-06-20T05:24:00.001-07:00

lol go Jonghun, ang cute mo. dpat lagi kang ganyan. :]] minus the girl aa. :]] pero okay lang, I DON'T HATE GIRLS JUST FOR THAT.

2PM

DBSK UFO Replies..

2009-06-13T02:00:00.000-07:00

stalker is such an ugly word
『 LEE JUNHO ♡ 』
and i both prefer the term
" Professional Crazed Fan "

Gokusen Movie Trailer

[FAN]Hi Yunho-yah who I want to call oppa. Let's get married.
[Yunho] Okay, get married with oppa(me) ^^

[FAN]I think Junsu oppa is the funniest in the world. Cutie baby oppa~~♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
[Junsu] Cutie fan~~♡

[FAN]Oppa is mine.
[Jaejoong] You're mine.

[FAN]Changmin-ah! I like you more than my bf!! T_T Sorry I'm this kind of noona - -; But it's the truth keke
[Changmin] You can't be like that noona~^^

[FAN]Ho please reply♡♡
[Yunho] Since when was my name Ho... keke

[FAN]I'm a genius. Oppa who saw this text is a babo♬
[Yoochun] You, the one getting the reply is a babo too..

[FAN]I'm sending this to the world's most splendid person. The world's most splendid person!! How about a reply with your splendid fingers!?
[Junsu] You're talking to me right??

[FAN]I'm sleepy~ I think I'll go to sleep if oppas sang me a lullaby!
[Jaejoong] Sleep well~ My baby~~ In the front lawn and matdongsan(korean chips)~

[FAN]Yoochun-ah...I want to see you on this rainy day..I want to share an umbrella with you and go to the gobchang street....When are you going to buy noona gobchang(cattle's small intestine)?
[Yoochun] Hm... Should I go out now? Where do you want to meet?^^

[FAN]Please send me an oyaji gag♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥I love you♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥
[Junsu] Kimi mo suki~♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

[FAN]Changmin-ah my grades are not even funny, there's no A.
[Changmin] I'm going crazy. (n i'm crazy for u!!)

[FAN]Changmin-ah stop getting worked up over fan's studies and text me some sweet message. K? ^^^^^^"
[Changmin] I'm not getting worked up;;

[FAN]Oppa, how is the air in Pusan?^^*~ I wanted to say this from before.... don't ever trim your armpit hair.
[Changmin] O;;K;; Thanks for worrying;;;;

[FAN]Reply!!
[Changmin] How dare you use a commanding tone!! keke

[FAN]Joongie come out!!! Where are you Jaejoong~
[Jaejoong] Jaejoongie here!!

[FAN]Jaejoong oppa and Junsu oppa shave your armpits right? >_
[Jaejoong] Actually I wanted it to grow so I tried shaving it... But it doesn't grow... T_T

[FAN]Oppa, want to spend a passionate night with me?
[Jaejoong] Oppa already promised Yunho!!

scandals should be banned..

2009-06-12T03:58:00.000-07:00

MNET.. uhh. SCANDAL?

who thought of that ~~fvcking~~ show anyways?

though i love MNet Scandal, i can't say i would just be sitting pretty and smiling at the computer if one of the idols i like are in that show. so, i know how you feel. but when i watched the last part of Hongki's scandal on episode one, it made me think. Why is it that idols on that show can't wait to show a lot of skinship? i'm not against it but they seem more wilder there. like hongki, for example, it's the first date yet he kissed her on the cheek and gave her something to eat using HIS OWN mouth. you get what i'm saying? Khun's ep was a lot tamer compared to this one.
and i know why lots of fangirls are complaining. It's not because they want that actor for themselves [though some do], it's because each and everyone of them are hoping to be given that chance the girlfriends are having now. it seems that that show picks girls who are quite perfect. like minsun, who was involved with a BOF actor. and yeohee, well, i still don't know.
that show wouldn't be hated if only they'd be more realistic. choose ordinary girls, would you?
uhh, no offense but, if it's already posted here on my blog, and you want to do the same post elsewhere, please, try not to make it obvious okay? you don't want to be called a copycat, don't you? :/

I listen to ^┌PARK JAEBEOM_┘'s voice
every day and every night

Everytime 『PARK JAEBEOM』 calls me,
my heart goes doki doki
lol. i really salute LJ for this. :D

PCD Concert..

2009-06-09T04:55:00.000-07:00

I Spy: Eunhyuk, Siwon, Taecyeon and his MNet Scandal girlfriend, and.. junsu? not xur though. haha, it's so sweet of Taec to let his girlfriend come with him, and judging by what i see, she's pretty average. but, don't believe me, and it's basically quite dark and blurry. :] Eunhyuk looks so excited, and Siwon. he made me LOL, hard. when i looked at his expression, it's like he was praying hard for everyone's salvation. he looked so serious. siwon, cheer up. :]]

realization..

2009-06-08T03:59:00.000-07:00

my entire view of kpop just changed.
i didn't know there was a bunch of people out there who hated my so called 'fandoms'. and i don't hate them for that. actually, i LOLed at many, but, well.. yea.
i realized that, I have the right to hate&bash people, especially idols, and i don't have the right to tell people to buzz off. that's their choice. :]
and i don't even like all of the members in the groups i like, and my fandoms, well.. they kinda changed. sorry guys, but, really some of those things i read was true, i gotta admit. i won't go too overboard from now, but. i'll still like you. though not as fangirly&crazy as before. now, i don't care if you have namjachingus/yeojachingus, instead i'll be happy for you. oh and i won't claim you as my own. though just a little bit, in my mind.XD

ganun lang kabilis, thank you LiveJournal, for making me realize that well, not all Koreans are Gods. in fact, none of them are. from now on, i'm just a fan. :D
that's all there is.

2009-06-06T04:31:00.000-07:00

Click
lol baket parang nki2ta ko si jonghun kai yoochun?
buhok ba o ung sa piano? sheeet.

lam kong belated. at alam kong hindi ko dpat gnagawa to. :]]
pero. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MICKY YOOCHUN!
lol. laki ng impact saken nung vid sa taas. kasi naman ee.
tas nlaman ko na anggaganda ng part ni yoochun dun sa Stand By You. letse. :]]
masama toooooo~ owell, wag naman.
ang tino lang kasi ng DBSK ngaun ee. :]]

HEY YOU WANT ME? I WANT YOU!

Jonghun CY Entries.lol.

2009-06-04T05:20:00.000-07:00

BEFORE THAT,. here's something:
Click me!Click me!

2009.05.31 Sunday 14:16
aigoo our pri is waiting for a message ㅋㅋ
A little later today I'll come back ㅋㅋ

2009.05.30 Saturday 20:47
I saw Primadonna (official FT Island fan group) today ^^
I liked it ~ I'll upload pictures!!

2009.05.29 Friday 16:01
Starting today, I'll reply back to your letters!
I'll even read and respond to Primadonna's letters sent long ago ~
Whew... Seunghyun wrote on his Cyworld that Jonghun doesn't have a Cyworld..
I told you I didn't want people to know... don't ask me about that
Honestly I made a Cyworld to use secretly. I don't know how the Primadonnas figured out I had a Cyworld...
- Starting replies to letters!!
p.s It takes less time if I write short replies
ex) Sender: Primadonna
Hi Jonghun Oppa ~
Choi Jonghun: Hi :D

2009.05.26 Tuesday 21:27
I don't want to tell anyone about my Cyworld
There's too many Primadonnas that I didn't send replies to
I'll read letters frequently now and send replies
I believe in Primadonna

2009.05.25 Monday 17:38
What the?? I didn't change the skin and the background song..
Lee Hongki messed with it.. He should just take care of his own Cyworld -,-
Primadonna!! Report if Lee Hongki comes on :D As a comment!!

2009.05.23 Saturday 23:05
Why do I sigh so much these days...
I wrestled with Seunghyun and Minhwan as soon as I came home -,-
It's hard playing with the youngest members~~
ps. Jonghun likes stickers ~~

2009.05.22 Friday 17:13
Fun game~:D

2009.05.20 Wednesday 22:18
I can't write a lot of entries for a while
Hmm.......
Write the first thing you want to do if Choi Jonghun was your boyfriend ~
It's okay to write a lot of things!! I will come back later..... I'm going to read all of your comments... Haha

2009.05.19 Tuesday 16:50
You thought I was a girl?
Wow... You have an amazing imagination? Hahaha
After I left my cousin made it but he changed the name or something??
But I don't even know ~
Starting tomorrow, I have a lot of schedules so even if I write an entry I'm going to write it very late
Sigh.. Don't force me

2009.05.18 Monday 19:11
I'm going to use all the skins and presents you gave me --
Don't worry.. I'm seeing everything..
I will use skins starting tomorrow
All the presents don't run away so I'm going to use them all so don't worry -.-
I'm going to use the skin given to me by Primadonnas who comment a lot!!
Hahahahahahahaha
ps. Let's excel Hongki

2009.05.17 Sunday 21:33
The weather changes so frequently....
I'm trying to memorize the names of Primadonnas~
I'm replying back a lot too^^
I'm sorry to Primadonnas I didn't send replies to..
You know I love you guys right?

2009.05.15 Friday 22:36
I Love you.
Please accept my feelings
It's love.

Primadonnas are studying Japanese too!
I wonder what it means??

2009.05.12 Tuesday 18:44
Whew.... I don't have a lot of free time these days..
There's a lot of schedules.... and I have to practice a lot ..
I'm going to do a lot today!
And practice....
Hahaha Jaejin is next to me staring -- haha.

2009.05.10 Sunday 18:43
I'm jealous of Hongki.....
I told him to give me some acorns but he won't. bad guy!
Let's just practice..

2009.05.09 Saturday 22:49
Primadonna..
I like it that you guys come see Jonghun
but don't cut!
What if you get hurt.....
If you get hurt then you might not be able to see Jonghun (?)
You know I'll be hurt if that happens
Ah ~ It's so hot
I'll write an entry frequently from now on
so Primadonnas leave comments that give strength to Jonghun!!
Jonghun is reading them all!!

2009.05.07 Thursday 19:39
Schedules start tomorrow.......~ The thought of meeting Primadonnas make me really happy!
I'll write an entry whenever I have time!!
Starting tomorrow I have a lot of schedules so Jonghun is probably going to have to rest!
primadonnas will be able to understand right??~
Just wait a little even if you miss Jonghun ! When schedules are over I will write an entry~^^
I love you Primadonna ~

2009.05.06 Wednesday 19:57
You know I love you right?????? Haha
I'm tired these days from all the schedules but I'm gaining my strength seeing my Primadonnas^^
Take care too Primadonnas!!!
The weather is so good these days!!!
Come to see Jonghun~~ Not Hongki !

2009.05.04 Monday 19:57
"Ecstasy man" Choi Jonghun

fvck

2009-06-02T05:21:00.000-07:00

spoof
yes. i'm officially back. and i'm excited.
well, gusto kong magreact sa blog ni alec dun sa mga facts.

Facts about people i like:
Even though Jo Kwon looks like a gay, i like him.
Hyungdon, Dongmin, Jaesuk are the funniest men alive. :]
i know jonghun's hair is bad, but i still like him. :]
and wonbin is eternal [though i know everyone knows that.]
Hey Say Jump? wtf is that? :/
Junho from 2PM loves online shopping.XD

Fvcks about me:
I memorize korean songs quickly.
If alec has high standards, mine are higher. [but i know someone who has no standards at all. T.T]
i am an only child.
when i don't understand someone, i tilt my head to the side slightly.
i'm not a camwhore.
wanna know a secret? i don't like pictures cause everytime i see my pic, i look like a complete dork.
i say ewww to mussels/tahongs.
i don't express myself really well. so usually my replies are short.
i loooove gory movies. and romantic movies creep me out.
i read fanfix when I like one of the characters. :D
i am a sadist and i blend in with sarcasm really well.
i suck at PS-ing. somebody help?
i practice taekwondo, so i love bruises.
i sometimes, oh well, most of the time, cuss loudly during practice.
i lie well. :D
i get bored easily.
i do what i say and promise.

..And your whiny,crybaby opinion would be?

KkoKkoMa-short little kid.

2009-05-31T19:26:00.000-07:00

i have learned another new korean word besides yuhok, jiji and jjang.
all describing a particular person.

without knowing, tears wet my feet again..

i, for the first time, have lost any interest in surfing the web and blogging these days. i'd rather read a book, which i have plenty, than dig mindless facts about singers my friends like, or maybe talk to my 'online' friends that i'm sure are fakes. i'm actually in a good mood, but well, i love a little sarcasm sometimes.

I was so embarassed, i hung my head..

school starts in a week, and i'm half ready-half not. i'm ready to give up my time in doing nonsense in front of the computer, but i'm not ready for the people i may see at school. i just can't take boastings, competition, rumors, fake loveteams and pressure. but owell, what can i do, right?

oh~ saying "please don't be like this. don't leave me"..

i. am. bored. and i'm pissed at my pc back at home. i'm hungry. and my cousins keep on teasing me and talking to me in english. i'm only good at it when typing or writing. so all i do is nod or shake my head. yea, sophisticated. since they were teeny tiny babies, they have been calling me 'isau', and a while ago, they decided on a new and improved nickname, 'uasi'. yea, call me that and i'll knock your teeth out. don't even try to laugh at it, you should be considered lucky that i'm telling you this.

today, for the first time, i cried in front of you

i'm still thinking if i'm gonna update this blog anymore, but knowing myself, when i see another vid i like at YT when i come back home, i'm sure there will be a new entry.
so anyways, my point is, YOU [if you know who you are], i don't want to talk to you. if ever you still want to, prepare to have a dull and sarcastic conversation.
new haircut. T.T
maybe that's the reason why i'm pissed, if i change hairstyles, i change personalities too.

bye.

2009-05-23T01:36:00.000-07:00

Daesung&Bingu.lol.

so, isa't kalahating araw akong ndi nkpagtype sa keyboard.
at namiss ko na agad un.

mga discoveries ko:
`mai iba iba plang klase ng private room sa hospital.
`hindi nka2tkot sa hospital. sino bang ulol ang nagpauso nun?
`masyado pang malaki. baba-akyat tuloy ako.
`ang meaning ng high cool sa aircon ay ung tipong manga2tog buong ktawan mo sa lamig.
`ganoon din sa low cool.
`nakakairita rin ang mga remote dun.
`pero, wala rin akong mapanood. T.T
`maraming payat na nurse dun.
`mai isang nurse na matangkad tska kmukha ni hayden kho.
`ndi masarap pagkaen sa ospital.
`maganda banyo sa MaDoks.
`iinit lang ang tubig dun kpag tumagal. sa una, soooooooobrang lamig nia.
`mai nescafe na latte sa grocery nila. [lol.grocery twag nmen ni papa dun ee.]
`mgnda view tuwing gabi kpag tumingin ka sa bintana.
`nka2inis ung saksakan nila. chinarge ko ung mp4 ko cmula 5 ng hapon khapon, tas hnggang kninang tanghali, ndi pa tapos. at worse, wala nang battery. T.T
`mahilig gumala ang tatay ko kpag walang mgawa.
`kpag inaalis ung dextrose sa likod ng palad mo, at mali ung hawak nung nurse[akaHaydenKho], sisirit ang dugo. seriously, pinigilan ko lang tawa ko nun.
`nalaman kong totoo at sagad sa buto ang pgka-sadista ko.

oh. extra.
you just can't stop human nature.lol kay leeteuk. ♥ andyan n ung credits kung san ko nkuha. :D

News patrol.XD

2009-05-21T04:05:00.000-07:00

wow grabee, sobrang daming kapal-muks na kandidato sa eleksyon. ka2panood ko lang sa TV Patrol knina ung tungkol dun. at minsan lang din ako magpost dito sa blog ng may 'sense'. nung minsan naring nkita ko ulit ung blumentritt, hbang nkasakay sa kotse, ung laging unang nka2-agaw ng pansin ko, ung mga campaign posters dun. ung tipong bago ung pngalan nila mai nkalagay, "Maligayang Pasko at Manigong Bagong Taon!", "Happy Valentines Day!" at ung mga mkita ko rin sa TV: "Operation Tule", "Gusto mo bang maging Scholar?", "Alis Anay sa Bahay" or something like that. ano namang paki nmen kung mai gnyang kaung programa? kailangan pa bang ipagmalaki n mai ngawa ka? at, sa tingin ko, ndi pa sila nagpa2alam na kung san-san lang nila idi2kit. sa mga poste, gate, kable ng kuryente. maswerte lang sila at hindi masunog un. mga mahal kong tao sa gobyerno, kahit gaano karaming posters ang isabit nio sa buong Pilipinas, wala namang epekto un sa boto nio eh.

..ahem. hindi naman po tlga un ung highlight nung blog ko eh. ung issue kai Hayden Kho. Mahiya ka nga. lol. un lang. :]]

because my heart is damaged, i can't even breathe
because it spread to my heart, it hurts so much i want to die.. it keeps hurting
even after going the hospital, i couldn't find the reason i was hurting
because my heart is damaged.

dahil kay junsu. linkie.

billie jean~ :3

2009-05-16T02:05:00.000-07:00

eto, alam kong mild pa`to. un nga lng, ETO LNG UNG MILD. UNG IBA, NDI NA. GETS?
JAY SPEECHLESS. tska ung ep 117 ng star king, ang gusto ko dun sa mga bata, ung nka blue na pants. :3 lol at nandun din ung mga batang mga2ling kumanta ~~kaso bulag sila.argh~~.

may part 5 na. kaso auko nang i-post. msakit ulo ko. -___-

2009-05-11T17:00:00.001-07:00

WONBIN'S CYWORLD UPDATE
2009.05.11 00:14

いまは悲しくてもかまわん.
now,I'm sad but it's all right

----> awww. don't be sad. T.T

2009-05-11T04:08:00.000-07:00

lol.
nka2gulat ung KBS.
bglang ngkaroon ng SGB knina.
at ung pnaka-aantai ko pang ep.
lol, sabi ni Jay 'Jiji'--> butt.XD

2009-05-09T16:04:00.000-07:00

nanood ako ng Hairspray khapon. at by far, mas ngustuhan ko un
kesa sa ~~High School Musical~~ cguro kasi ang astig nung cast.
lalo na si John Travolta, lol. :]]
kaia kung gusto nio ng movie n parang musical, Hairspray nlng panoorin nio. :D

at nadiscover kong vid. lab na lab tlga ni Boom c Jaebeom,lol.
lol Jay, si Junho tas si Boom?! :))

2009-05-06T23:39:00.001-07:00

lol. fave tlga ni jay pink? :]]

draw with me? :33 sweet~

tska hapi 700th day fti!~

2009-05-05T15:21:00.001-07:00

WONBIN'S CYWORLD UPDATE
05/05/2009

しんぱいをかけたな.. すまんね..
I made u feel worry about me ... i'm sorry

もうちょっとまってくれる?
please wait for me for a bit , ok?

いまはぼく..
now i ..

ちょっとやすみたいんだ
wanna have a rest more

and lol jay. just lol.
pink rectangular underwear, ei?

at eto na2man ang ktangahan ko,
nauntog ako sa gilid ng pintuan nmen.
me sugat 2loi ako. T.T
ansakeeeeeeeet. slave ko, help.

2009-05-04T17:20:00.001-07:00

junsu singing in a wheelchair.
aww, my poor ~~baby~~ :[

naaadik n2man ako sa dongbangshinki.
si riva kasi ee. :]]
oh btw, riva can't live without me! :]]
tska, LOVELY COMPLEX RULES! lol.

kaia ko pla ngu2stuhan si junsu ee.
kc malapet sa bata. sweet~ :]]
gusto ko ng gnun. :]]

2009-05-02T22:14:00.001-07:00

takte,.
pinamumugaran n ng mga pilipino ang star king. tsk3.
this may 2 lang yan aa.
tska, well. peyborit ko ung pngatlong lumabas. :/
err. angganda ng boses nila. as in. lalo n ung pnakamtnda.

Minji-ah, saranghae~

lol riba, infairness cute ung part n un. at sabay kiss sa cheeks.
wag ka ma-offend, cute ung babae. and she deserves it. :D

(67) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?
→ i wouldn't consider him unattractive cause he isn't. *ung lalakeng mgnda boses sa star king*

ayun. iniba ko tuloy sagot ko.
pero whoo. nung nagperf ung 2PM. bsiwit ung babaeng twilry-twirly.
jelly ako ke junsu.lol. :]]
bute nlng pati si khun, wooyoung tska taec ginanun. :]]

lol. ang clumsy mo.XD

2009-05-02T02:36:00.000-07:00

can you believe it?
leadja wrote the lyrics he sang. :]]
well. i guess every person i like is cool.XD

2009-04-30T06:11:00.000-07:00

YOUR NAME

(1) The singular boring question: What is your name?
→ Isabelle

(2) If you had been born a member of the opposite sex, what would your name have been?
→ Lui? lol. may ntandaan lang.XD

(3) Would you name a child of yours after you?
→ nope. i won't let her suffer by having my name.

(4) If you had to switch first names with a friend of yours, who would you switch with?
→ it would be.. ER. lol. emergency room.

(5) What's the way people most often mispronounce any part of your name?
→ they call me "isa" which i hate.
→ i think someone once called me, "isabel-ye"

(6) If you were to become famous, would you drop your last name (like Madonna, Cher, Roseanne)?
→ not sure.

DEEP THEOLOGICAL QUESTIONS

(7) Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?
→ like the way hell is filled with fire? probably.

(8) Do you think God has a gender?
→ he's a he. and that's what i believe.

(9) Do you think science counteracts religion?
→ yea. in many ways. and it hurts just to think of some of it.

(10) Do you believe in organized religion?
→ nope.

(11) Where do you think we go when we die?
→ nowhere. or maybe it's purgatory.

(12) Do you feel a little funny thinking about the questions in this section?
→ not much.

HUMOR

(13) How easy is it to make you laugh?
here's a step-by-step procedure.
→ go to a video store.
→ rent a horror vid. [rent gory movies for best results]
→ then give it to me.
→ i'll laugh my head off.

(14) What person you know makes you laugh the most?
→ Aiba Masaki.

(15) Do you laugh at jokes you know you shouldn't?
→ yea. especially green ones.XD

(16) Do you tell jokes you know you shouldn't?
→ yea, i do. what is it to you?

(17) What words instantly make you laugh or at least smile?
→ jaebeom. junsu. dictionary.XD

(18) What do you think is the funniest thing you've ever said or written?
→ ask alec.

MUSIC

(19) Do you ever dance to music when nobody's watching?
→ yea. haha.xD

(20) What is/are the worst song(s) you have ever heard?
→ because i got high. i forgot the singer though.

(21) What song(s) do you wish you could understand a little better?
→ korean&jap songs

(22) What song(s) are constantly in your head?
→ FOB's

(23) What song(s) do you think describe your personality best?
→ sweet caroline.lol.

(24) If you were to serenade the object of your affections, which song(s) would you use?
→ can i love you, river flows in you, i do.

(25) If the object of your affections were to serenade you, what song(s) would you hope he or she used?
→ anything by yiruma.

MOVIES

(26) What movie(s) do you love that nobody else seems to?
→ texas chainsaw massacre?

(27) Do you agree with the idea that sequels are always worse than the original?
→ it depends. maybe the original sucks too, so what's the point?

(28) Who's your favorite Star Wars character?
→ never liked 'em.

(29) What kind of movie do you think there should be more of?
→ GORY ONES!

(30) What movie(s) do you simply not understand the appeal of?
→ star wars.

FOOD

(31) When eating, are you more concerned with taste or healthiness?
→ taste. and sometimes, healthiness too.

(32) What's your favorite kind of cheese?
→ the jonghun one.xD

(33) What do you think your answer to the previous question reveals about your personality?
→ huh?

(34) If you knew exactly what went into Chinese food, hamburger meat, etc., would you still eat it?
→ if it has any weird animal, for sure, i won't even dare to look at it at all.

(35) Do you ever feel guilty eating meat?
→ nope.

COMPUTERS

(36) Mac or PC?
→ Pc, cause i don't own a Mac.

(37) How much do you actually care about the inner workings of your computer, as long as it works?
→ my head hurts. curse you stupid question!

(38) Do you ever begin preferring IMs to other forms of conversation?
→ yea. it's easier. but at the same time, it's irritating.

(39) Do you find you're different talking through IMs than face-to-face or on the telephone?
→ yea. i usually get shy through telephone calls.

(40) Have you ever ended bid on something on eBay and regretted it later?
→ nope. i don't go on eBay.

THE BATTLE OF THE SEXES

(41) Have you ever wished you could experience being the other gender?
→ yea, a few times before.

(42) What do you love most about the other gender?
→ the cheesy but romantic one. :]]

(43) What do you dislike most about the other gender?
→ being obsessed with "ADULT THINGS".

(44) What do you understand least about the other gender?
→ the lazy&too-much-carefree attitude.

CELEBRITIES

(45) Do you sometimes see a movie or watch a show just because a good-looking celebrity is in it?
→ ofcourse.

(46) What celebrity's autograph do you want most?
→ 2PM, suju and fti's.

(47) Have people ever said you looked like a celebrity, and if so, who?
→ argh. ~~shaina magdayao~~ but i don't. srsly.

(48) If there was to be a movie about you, who do you think should play you (in personality, looks or both)?
→ someone who is tomboyish,loves gore and hates skirts.XD

(49) Does it ever annoy you when you know someone is a celebrity but you can't remember why?
→ yea. esp charice pempengco. T.T

(50) If you could enter any celebrity's mind like in "Being John Malkovich", whose would you enter?
→ a fortuneteller. nvm celebrities.

(51) Do you want to be John Malkovich?
→ yea. i guess. that would be fun.XD

NUMBERS

(52) Do you laugh when you hear or read the number 69?
→ nope. i smile.

(53) Were you lying about your answer to the previous question?
→ i said the truth. buzz off.

(54) Do you actually know your Social Security Number?
→ i don't have one.lol.

(55) Do you actually know your IP address?
→ i don't think i have one too.

(56) Do you know what an IP address is?
→ yea.

(57) Do you know the four-character extension on your ZIP code?
→ our zip code in the phils. is composed of 4 numbers.

(58) Ever thought there were too many numbers floating around in our lives?
→ yea, esp during algebra.

(59) Does your head begin to hurt when you think of infinity, imaginary numbers, irrational numbers, etc.?
→ YEA.

(60) What do you think of pi?
→ 3.14

LOVE, SEX AND ALL THAT

(61) Did you get a little frightened or uncomfortable seeing this as a section title?
→ no.

(62) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?
→ Flattered, but standoffish?

(63) Do you prefer getting to know someone first before dating them or going in "blind"?
→ getting to know is better.

(64) Could you carry on a relationship with someone with the same first name as a family member?
→ i don't see why not.

(65) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?
→ yea, i have.

(66) What's your opinion on sex without emotional commitment?
→ it's icky.

(67) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?
→ i wouldn't consider him unattractive. *ung lalakeng mgnda boses sa star king*

(68) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good-looking?
→ dont' care. stupid question once again.

(69) Would you be willing to give up sex in exchange for an emotional commitment you knew would last?
→ ofcourse!

(70) Do you think the number of the last question was a coincidence?
→ not paying attention to the number, and i'm not green.

POSSESSIONS

(71) What is your favorite possession?
→ my wallet.

(72) What physical, tangible possession do you want most?
→ latest laptop.

(73) How badly do you want it?
→ suuupppperrr~

(74) Have you ever seen 'The Exorcist'?
→ yea~ :]]

(75) How long did it take you to understand why the last question is in this section?
→ ~~whattt?!~~ now i understand. thanks alec. *winks*

HOLIDAYS

(76) Does Christmas music too far away from Christmas annoy you?
→ yea, it does.

(77) How old do you think you will be before you stop liking getting older?
→ 16.

(78) What was the best Halloween costume you ever had?
→ we don't celebrate halloween here.

(79) What was the worst Halloween costume you ever had?
→ 0.o

(80) What holiday do you think has still managed to retain its original meaning?
→ valentines. T.T

(81) There are currently no federal holidays during August- what should be put there?
→ ice cream day.

MEMORIES

(82) How good is your short-term memory?
→ it's bad.
(
83) How good is your long-term memory?
→ much better.

(84) What is your earliest memory?
→ hitting my head on the wall while in a bathtub.

(85) What is your happiest memory?
→ my head hurts from thinking so much.

(86) What is your strangest memory?
→ dreams, mostly.

(87) What song, movie, etc. do you wish you could memorize?
→ any 2PM's rap in their songs.

TEARS

(88) What movie makes/made you cry?
→ absolute boyfriend.

(89) What book makes/made you cry?
→ books don't make me cry.

(90) What song makes/made you cry?
→ it depends on my mood.

(91) What makes/made you laugh so hard you cried?
→ when somebody sneezed while saying something.XD

2009-04-30T03:47:00.000-07:00

don't ask about these people. just read on, okay?

1.

well, this is the thing. though i may sound like i'm obsessed with koreans, even if i sound and may look like an idiot blabbering all nonsense about them, i don't tell the whole world that i love them every freaking minute. i am sometimes a bit hyper when talking about them, but really, it's not i want to dream about them every night, i don't lie to become known, and though i brag about them [only a teeny tiny bit though] i don't claim them as my own. T.T

i am not an obvious person. i don't like to be the center of attention EVERYTIME. i [sometimes] think before i act and love. and when i'm doing things like this [saying bad things about a person], i try not to make the reader know that it is not her/him though it's really him/her and usually, i succeed. i don't think about a guy everytime, give him cutesy nicknames, put hearts all 'round his name. that's icky. and lame.

okay, bear with me, this is the last.

3.

i don't have a bestfriend. but i have close friends, and i'm pretty certain they didn't befriend me cause of bribes or anything of the sort. i don't try to make up a couple of lies just to have something to talk about. i don't go praising others about how pretty they are even if it's not from the ♥. i don't even reject friends cause we have nothing in common. COMMUNICATION, remember that word dear.

actually, there are some clues to who the persons are. :D
good luck finding them. *smiles*
oh and i just watched texas chainsaw massacre in my friend's house. it was lovely.
i was laughing throughout the whole movie. lol. told you i was weird.
and, is it just me or is kim junsu of 2PM getting <3333?

2009-04-29T16:02:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WOOYOUNG! :DD

2009-04-29T06:20:00.000-07:00

lol. wala tlgang kupas si bob ong. :]]

letter ng isang bulag. bulag sa pag-ibig.lol.

Dear Mr. Bob Ong,

Matagal ko na pong nililigawan itong ramp model na stage actress na nakilala ko recently sa isang party. Nasisiraan na ako ng bait. Pag nakilala mo siya, tiyak matutunaw ang utak mo sa kakaisip sa kanya. Hingi lang po ako ng advice. Paano ko po siya mapapaibig? Bibigyan ko ba siya ng tula? Haharanahin ko ba siya? Roses? Kalachuchi? Chocnut at sampaguita? In lab na po ako. Ano po ang gagawin ko? Is she the one.
Lubos na gumagalang,
- Bartolome -

- ANG REPLY -

Dear Bartolome, Hindi ka talaga sasagutin niyang nililigawan mo. Napaka-old school kasi ng mga tactics mo. Wala nang gumagawa ng ganyan. Sa panahon ngayon, lahat ng bagay, nagtaas na. Nagtaas na ang gasolina, nagtaas na ang presyo ng bigas at mga bilihin, nagtaas na ang pamasahe, at lalong nagtaas na rin ng standards ang mga babae. Hindi na uubra yang siopao at kalachuci mo. Lalo na yung huli mong binigay, hopia at santan. Ano ba pare? Ano’ng era ka ba pinanganak? Pero don’t worry. It’s not too late. May pag-asa ka pa. Hindi pa naman siya kinakasal at di pa niya sinasagot yung crush niya na basketball player. Kahit lamang siya ng sampung paligo sa’yo, daanin mo sa utak at creativity. Dahil aminin na natin, iyon na lang talaga ang pag-asa mo. Heto, bibigyan kita ng mga simple, tried and tested na mga regalo para di siya mapurga sa hopia at siomai. Sundin mo ‘to, tiyak na lalaglag ang bagang niya sa’yo. Mga medyo more than your usual regalong panligaw:

1. Bili ka ng century tuna. Ilagay mo sa isang napakalaking box—yung sinlaki ng TV o kaya box ng desktop PC mo. Tapos balutan mo ng magarang pambalot. Kuntsabahin mo na yung teacher niya sa Calculus. Sa gitna ng klase, bigla kang kumatok sa classroom. Pero dapat, incognito ka. Magsuot ka ng LBC jacket, magshades, at magsuot ng surgical mask. Pagpasok mo sa classroom, iabot mo yung box sa teacher, at papirmahin mo ng acknowledgement receipt. Tapos pabuksan mo in front of everyone. Tignan mong mabuti ang reaction sa mukha niya. Later during the day, pag tinanong niya kung bakit Century Tuna ang binigay mo, iikot mo yung lata at ituro mo yung sign na “Omega 8.” Pag tinanong niya kung ano yung Omega 8, sabihin mo: “because you’re good for my heart.”

2. Mangolekta ka ng isang dosenang hanger na libre mong nakukuha tuwing nagpapa-dry clean ka. Tapos, sa bawat hanger, isula mo: “I miss hanging out with you.”

3. Instead of roses, kuha ka ng tissue paper sa banyo ng school mo. Gawin mong tissue paper roses. Gawa ka ng isang dosena. Pag-abot mo, sabihin mo, “Ganito kalinis ang pag-ibig ko sa’yo.”

4. Bili ka ng tetra pack ng mantikang Minola. Tapos bilugan mo yung “with Omega 8.” Hindi na siya magtatanong kung bakit.

5. Bigyan mo ng ice cream cone. Dapat cone lang at walang ice cream. Pag hinanap niya yung ice cream, sabihin mo, “natunaw na kakatitig sa’yo.”

6. Bili ka ng sandosenang box ng crayola. Kolektahin mo lahat ng black. Lagay mo sa isang box ng crayola. Sa likod, isulat mo: “Walang kulay ang buhay kung wala ka.”

7. Bigyan mo siya ng mumurahing bumbilya. Alam mo na siguro by this time kung ano ang isasagot pag tinanong niya kung bakit.

8. Itext mo siya ng: “Hindi tayo tao, hindi tayo hayop, hindi tayo halaman. Bagay tayo. Bagay!”

9. Bigyan mo siya ng calling card ng MMDA. Sa likod, isulat mo “para pag nagkabanggaan ang puso natin.”

10. Padalhan mo ng Happy Meal pero huwag mong ibibigay yung libreng laruan. Paghinanap niya, sabihin mo: “Ako yung freebie, at ikaw yung meal na nagpapahappy sa’kin.”

11. Sunugin ang kanyang bahay at padalhan ng hallmark card: "aanhin mo pa ang bahay mo, kung matagal ka nang nakatira sa puso ko"

12. Pagkatapos sunugin ang kanyang bahay, padalhan siya ng isang box ng posporo, Guitar brand. unahan ang kanyang galit at sabihin, "ayan ang posporo na ginamit ko sa pagsunog ng iyong bahay, match na tayo"

13. Sa kalagitnaan ng isang malupit na bagyo, pasalubungan sya ng "salbabida", wag payong, o mainit na mami. Pag nagtanong bkt? ang isagot mo ay "ayaw kong malunod ka sa pag mamahal ko."

14. Pag pumayag na siyang makipagdate, dalhin mo siya sa canteen at huwag bibitawan ang kamay. Pag tinanong niya kung bakit, ituro mo yung sign na “don’t leave your valuables unattended."

crazy dance.lol.

2009-04-26T07:49:00.000-07:00

and taec at jay's bday party. :D

Uncyclopedia

2PM's leader who performs to exceed and not succeed.

2009-04-23T07:05:00.001-07:00

Mr. Park Jaebeom

~~coming soon. cause it's his birthday.~~
going to post now cause it's almost 12. i think.

2PM's Leadja, Park Jaebeom.
saengil chukahae~
you're turning 22 right? [but unfortunately, in Korea, you're 23.]

again and again and again and again
i fall for your words again. i don't know why, i don't know why

random:
oh and watching FO with TOP.lol.
Bingu TOP? :]]

2009-04-23T01:47:00.000-07:00

kayamanan, kayamanan, kayamanan!

my treasures have just increased in number. AGAIN.
and maybe soon, it will increase even more. :]] *evil laugh*

oh and. pics.
i just saved pics of 2PM.
but unfortunately, majority of it weren't child-friendly. [you get the idea]
EXR summer photoshoot and a gif of jay and taec.

unfortunately, due to fangirling circumstances,
i Dled the GOM player late, and ended up watching K.Will's perf on Mnet.
i was too late.
i only saw 2PM when the MC was saying goodbye to the audience. T.T
looking forward to watching the perf on YT. :[

oh and this vid. srsly.
what was mr park thinking? no need to show THAT. *nosebleed*
glimpses of junho/rain. :]]

just realized that the vid of their comeback that i posted was kinda confusing.
the music was on different parts, kinda like a dubbing of an anime gone wrong.
will post a nicer one when i see one.XD

2009-04-22T18:45:00.003-07:00

to my friend:
i told you kangin isn't boastful, that's just the way he is.

이 음모입니다!

2009-04-22T03:29:00.000-07:00

go jun brothers.lol.
and mr park too.XD

go, ideal boyfriend. go

2009-04-21T07:07:00.001-07:00

waaaaaaaaaaaah!
i hate those kind of dramas wherein they don't have a happy ending.
you know, the way i want it to end. T.T
絶対彼氏=ハッピーエンド
unfortunately, NOT. darnitsomuchimsopissedoff.
さようなら~ such a bad word. :[[
i've never believed in の愛に even when i was 3.

2009-04-20T05:33:00.001-07:00

okay, something to share.
it would be nice if 2PM really got to do the arrow-thingy during their comeback! :D
JAY&JUNHO <3333333333333
*major major major major spazz*

April 23!!!

oh and about my blog title:
it means "i miss you like crazy.. do you?" :D

jaebeom's message for fans..

2009-04-19T03:24:00.001-07:00

2nd single was released!
We will do our best efforts, enthusiastically. keke
Keep give your support!
2PMlish passion and energy (always observe good manners).
By the way, hottie are the best fans in the whole world.
This goes out to all my hotties
LOVE and RESPECT

from
Leadja~
Jae Beom
2PM
AOM (*AOM stands for 'Art of Movement', Jaebeom's dance team when he was in the States.)

oh and i'm endorsing Pepsi.
it's much more better than coke.
plus, it will be endorsed by Lee Minho. :D

wonbin.. :[

2009-04-19T02:50:00.000-07:00

Cut of "The One" from the footage of FT Island's Japanese fanmeet early this year. The meet took place only a few weeks after Wonbin's departure was announced, and they closed the meet with this song. It took place seconds after Wonbin's solo stage and the reading of his farewell letter. Don't watch if you're happy and want to stay that way, because the boys are crying hard and Hongki is the only one who manages to sing his parts. Jonghoon barely gets out two words and Jaejin isn't a lot better. All-in-all, if I had to choose a word to describe this, it would be "heartbreaking".

As a side note, I would just like to point out that this is not the behavior of people who hate one another. Just saying.

Minhwan isn't there because he was filming his Korean drama.

Part 2 of Wonbin's solo stage from his last-ever fanmeeting with FT Island, or FT Island's last fanmeet with him, depending on how you look at it. Includes Wonbin reading a goodbye letter to the fans, and his solo performance of Meeting. He has a hard time getting through both, so don't watch this if you're in a happy mood and want to stay that way.

here's the translation:
First and foremost..I'm really sorry..
I'm really sorry I won't be able to be together with the members from now on, and that I also cannot be together with all the fans.
But today, because I wanted to see all of Primadonna Japan, I have come to Japan.

I also thought about this and discussed this with everyone for a long time and this is the conclusion I have come to, but I think there will also be people who will not think of this kind of me very well.
I am sorry.
Also, all kinds of rumours have been spreading ever since I quit the group, that I was bullied, or that I wasn't getting along well with the members...that is not the reality of it.

I don't know if the other members are listening to me, but there is something I want to use this opportunity to say.
Jonghun, Hongki, Jaejin and even though he's not here, Minhwan!
Even though I think no matter what kind of words I say my feelings right now will not be able to be expressed, I really had a lot of fun.
The four years I spent with everyone, if I look back we had fights, and though I can't say it was always enjoyable, I gained many things, and it was by all means not a painful time.
To be honest I don't know how all of you think of me right now.
Since it's not like I always showed a good side of myself and all.
But to be honest, I didn't know it at that time.
That I would come to think of all of you this much when I separated from you.
I'm taking this opportunity today to say this, but I think I will always be together with you all, and I will always be cheering for you.
I really, really thank you.

And to all the members of Primadonna Japan, I really thank you very much.
Even though we've only released two albums in Japan and things were just getting started from now on, of what's happened till now I have many difficult, enjoyable, and other memories.
That may be so, but strangely the memories that remain me with right now are nothing but the enjoyable ones.
Thank you very much.
I won't forget you, and I think I won't be able to.

I will not say goodbye.
Someday, though I really don't know when that'll be, until the time I am able to meet all of you, I think I would like to do my best each and every day, like it's my last one.

All the members of Primadonna Japan,
I really thank you very much.

February 10, 2009
From Wonbin

porn: don't read. T.T

2009-04-16T14:52:00.000-07:00

yea, i'm pissed.
i didn't get to sleep well, i got up at 3am in the morning.
well.. i wouldn't have thought that he could OWN something like that.
well, actually i think he borrowed it, more ickier.
at first, i thought, "this must've been put here by mistake".
but i was looking at it soo disgustingly.
i was pretty shocked when i saw it, and by instinct, i hid it.
but after a few minutes, he searched for it and when he found it, tried to hide it from me. he put it his bag. 0.o
stupid stupid. i don't show reaction when seeing THAT kind of stuff,
[cause everyone has to see that at times, and i've seen it many times i think i'm gonna puke]
but the thought that he hid it and he HAD one makes me pissed.
always thought he was different from others, but hell no. he wasn't.
same as everyone. a sick liar.

2009-04-15T20:55:00.000-07:00

yea.
i think today's the day that 2PM's single will be released and the MV too.
~~but i didn't find it on youtube a while ago when i was searching for it. T.T~~
i.am.speechless.
they look so good. ALL OF THEM. aghsrhsrlnhasklghipg.
wooyoung was first and.. well.. harhdgjkasnglasnfghklasdfnbh. :]]
jay's hair on the side doesn't read 2PM anymore. but it's so <3333333. yea.xD
junho's hair didn't change much, but his aura sure did.XD he looks so much like rain.
chansung has short hair!!!! and junsu's hair is <333. :]]
nichkhunomg.
taecyeon. well. bsjgbeasfjklbnpnhirsnbh.
i dunno what to say.XD
and I HAVE DLED THEIR NEW ALBUM! :D

What Time Is It Now
yo (yo). yo, everybody. listen carefully
what time is it now? i said, what time is it now?
it's time for change, it's time for a new generation
it's time for a new star to shine.
so, what time is it now? what time is it now?
it's 2-P-M. you hear that? i said, it's 2-P-M.

dream wedding survey.

2009-04-15T05:09:00.000-07:00

PART ONE : THE PARTNER (it can be your significant other, crush, or just someone made up!)
{1} Firstly, are they your bride or groom?:
`groom.
{2} What's their last name? Will you be taking theirs?:
`oh. and yea. so it'll be oh soori~ :]]
{3} What color are their eyes?:
`brown.
{4} Hair?:
`brown/black.
{5} How tall are they?:
`almost 5'9'? :]]
{6} If you have kids, what traits of theirs do you hope the kids inherit?:
`quiet but funny when talking.
{7} If this person took your last name, what would their full name be?:
`it would sound REALLY WEIRD.
[but if it's my korean name, choi wonbin~lol.]
{8} Will they be wearing a dress or tuxedo? Maybe something different?:
`tuxedo. a white one.
{9} What are their ethnicities?:
`korean.
{10} Do you get along with their family, or will you have the stereotypical bad in-laws?:
`i think i will. :DD

PART TWO : YOUR DRESS (if you're not wearing a dress, tell us what you'll be wearing)
{1} What color will it be? Describe it, too.:
`it would be.. white. and simple.
{2} How much will you spend on it? What's your maximum amount?:
`we'll be rich, so does it matter?
{3} Will it be long, short, or in the middle?:
`long, of course. :D
{4} What kind of sleeves will it have?:
`no sleeves. [it's not everyday that you get married, you know.]
{5} Will the top show cleavage?:
`0.o
{6} If you had/have tattoos, would you pick a dress to show them off or hide them?:
`i don't have them.
{7} What shoes would you wear with it?:
`i'd wear high heels. :]
{8} Would your partner approve of this dress?:
`he better do so. cause i'd smack him.
{9} Where will you most likely be buying this dress from?:
`not in this country. probably.
{10} Will the dress have any special touches (sparkles, chains, whatever)?:
`sparkles? ..uhm..frills? [girly.eww.]

PART THREE: PARTNER'S OUTFIT
{1} Dress, tuxedo, or what?:
`tuxedo.
{2} What colors will it be?:
`white. or black.
{3} Will they wear the stereotypical white dress/black and white tuxedo or something different?:
`he's better with a white one. or even outrageous outfits, it'd still look good on him.
{4} Will their outfit match yours?:
`yea. :D
{5} What type of shoes will they wear?:
`shiny black ones.
{6} What kind of hair style will they have?:
`the long one he had when they were filming hangeul island. :D
{7} Will they wear makeup? What kind?:
`the one which doesn't show that you have one. [confusing]
{8} What kind of jewelry will they have on?:
`ring maybe?
{9} Would they agree to wear this outfit, realistically?:
`yea, he will.
{10} What type of shirt would they have (if they're not wearing a dress)?:
`it's a tuxedo! darn it.

PART FOUR : THE CAKE
{1} What flavor would it be?:
`strawberry? chocolate! :]
{2} Home made or store bought?:
`store brought.
{3} What color will the icing be?:
`blue.
{4} What are the decorations and what color would they be?:
`maybe a cute mini train at the top. :]]
{5} How many layers?:
`5, mwahahaha~
{6} Any pudding or whatever in the middle?:
`yea. okay. [my friend and i don't know what pudding taste like. yea, we're weird.]
{7} How much would you pay for it?:
`we're rich! so i don't care! :]]
{8} If you're buying, where would you buy it from?:
`from europe.
{9} How many people would it feed?:
`thousands.XD
{10} What would the theme of the cake be?:
`let's go on a journey on our mini train.lol.

PART FIVE : MUSIC
List 10 songs you want played. [what am i thinking?!]
{1} forevermore sung by onew.
{2} you found me-the fray
{3} bodyguard-shinee
{4} marry u-suJu.lol.
{5} i do-rain
{6} 10 points out of 10-2PM
{7} mcjolly/dodo-giniling festival
{8} only you-2PM
{9} because i'm stupid-SS501
{10} as long as you love me-u-Kiss [especially for alec.]

PART SIX : ROLES
{1} Who will be... the maid of honor?:
`Alec.
{2} The best man?:
`Choi Jonghun [so if we get divorced, he'll be my second choice.xD]
{3} The brides maids?:
`riva
`chamy
`nicole
`chai
{4} Whatever the guy's friends are called?:
`FT Island! :D
{5} The flower girl?:
`Jessica from SNSD. *evil laugh*
{6} The ring bearer?:
`baby mason. :D
{7} The person to marry you two?:
`kenneth b.
{8} The person to "hand you over" to your partner?:
`Shaq.
{9} The one playing the piano?:
`JUNSU! :D
{10} The one providing the other music?:
`thomas. [whooo~ sound engineer.]

PART SEVEN : TRADITIONAL THINGS; HOW TRADITIONAL WILL YOU BE?
[x] Getting married in a church.
[x] Getting married by a priest. [so kenneth b. is going to be a priest?!]
[x] White wedding dress.
[x] Guy proposes.
[x] Diamond ring for the woman, plain band for the guy.
[x] The classic music played as the bride walks down the aisle.
[x] Tuxedos for guys.
[x] Lots of food, flowers, and a big cake.
[ ] Outside on a spring day.
[ ] Religious ceremony.
[ ] Big wedding (lots of family invited).
[x] Tossing the bouquet.

PART EIGHT : THE LOCATION
{1} Inside or outside?:
`inside the church. duh~
{2} Where would it be located?:
`at a BIG cathedral~ :]]
{3} What season will it be?:
`winter.
{4} What day will it be?:
`wednesday.
{5} What would the weather be like?:
`what's the weather during winter?
{6} Is this a popular wedding location?:
`nope. few will know this place.
{7} Will your family approve?:
`yep. :D
{8} Will it be in a certain state, province, or country? Which?:
`country. in France.
{9} Will it be easy for family/friends to travel there?:
`nope, but they will enjoy it once they get there.
{10} Is this where you always wanted to hold your wedding?:
`yea. :D

PART NINE : EXTRAS
{1} What color will the flowers be?:
`blue roses and lilies.
{2} What type of food will you serve? How much will there be?:
`sushi. cause hubby likes it.
`hamburgers. same reason as above.XD
`and anything that sounds sophisticated.XD
{3} What color will the bride's maids' dresses be?:
`blue~
{4} What about the groom's whatevertheyare? What colors will their outfit be?:
`black. [lol at "whatevertheyare"XD]
{5} Will the invitations be handmade or bought?:
`bought. :D
{6} Would you ever combine your two last names (ex. Jane Jones-Smith)?:
`nope. it sounds funny.
{7} Will your wedding have a theme? What theme?:
`come ride with us~ ;]]
{8} Will you use the traditional vows or write your own?:
`i will use my own. :D
{9} Will you convert to your partner's religion or vice-versa?:
`nope. i respect his religion.
{10} Would you want to renew your vows after a certain amount of time? How long?:
`after 50 yrs. :D

i tag: [kasi diba kelangan mag-isip ng isang tao? ayan ung inyo ah.]
`alec-jo ji hoon
`riva-anthony

onigirii~

2009-04-14T23:22:00.001-07:00

okay. nagphotoshop ako dahil dito.
don't ask how i made it, just experimenting. :D
but whatever is there, it's 100% true. :D

oh and by tomorrow, please visit my youtube account.
FTi's full MV is there. :D
nvm, here's the link

oh and i can't believe Aiba from Arashi came to the Phils. 0.o
but it was in 2005, but STILL. he went here. 0.o

2nd ver.

2009-04-14T14:41:00.000-07:00

junho <3333333
jaebeom [as expected] 0.o

2009-04-14T05:47:00.000-07:00

HaHaHa Campaign - SNSD Jessica

Welcome!
What shall I call you?
`as if you can call me something.
Why are you taking this survey?
`i'm bored. aren't you?
Promise not to get offended?
`yea.
Great! Any last words? (Muahahaha!):
`my head hurts.

Personal Life
How's life treaten' ya?
`like a boat on a stormy ocean.
Are you happy with your life right now?
`yea.
What could make it better, even if you are?
`that package to arrive.
Who do you live with?
`my parents.
How do you feel about this?
`it's okay.
Do you have a history of traumatic events in your life?
`nope. i'm boring, right?
How is school?
`school's doing good, with new paint and tiles. :D
Do you have lots of friends?
`i think so.
How do people generally perceive you?
`snob?
How do you generally perceive people?
`snobs.
Are you a bitter person?
`sometimes.
Do you easily get jealous of people?
`depends.
How do you channel your anger?
`i kick hard.
How well do you trust others?
`about.. 50%

Your Appearance
Do you think you are attractive?
`nope.
Why or why not?
`cause i said so.
What is your favorite physical feature?
`my nails? :]]
Why do you choose this, above all?
`cause they're long. :]]
What do you think of your eyes?
`they're brown, and big when i was a baby.
Do you like the person you see in the mirror?
`if she just woke up, then yes. :]
Do you have a nice body?
`nope.
Have you ever been happy with your appearance?
`yea, sometimes.
What about unhappy?
`yea.
Has anyone ever called you ugly?
`i'm been calling myself with that name for years. :D
Do you think you're ugly?
`yea.
Were you blessed with physical qualities?
`maybe.
How important is appearance to you?
`not so important.
What 2 major things would you change about your appearance?
`1.no
2.thing
Why do you choose these two things?
`i'm happy w/ what i am now.

Friends and Social Life
Let's be vague. In general, do you like people?
`yea.
Why or why not?
`i'd be soo bored with no one to talk to.
Do you have a high or low tolerance for stupidity?
`high.
Do you accept others' beliefs?
`sometimes.
Do you think you have lots of friends?
`i just think so.
What do you think of the friends you do have?
`they're great.
Do you believe that 'friendship is golden'?
`yea.
Do you have a best friend?
`nope. and i will never have one.
How long have you known this person?
`don't have one. [kulet.]
Are they like a brother/sister to you?
`._.
Are you shy?
`yea.
Are you outgoing?
`yea.
Have you been hurt by people?
`during trainings.
Have you ever intentionally hurt anyone, physically or emotionally?
`yea.
Why or why not?:
`P:during sparring.
E:cause they've hurt me too.

The Things No One Likes to Talk About! (Touchy Questions Ahead)
Has someone close to you ever died?
`yea. of course.
Do you think about suicide?
`nope.
Have you ever tried to commit suicide?
`nope.
Do you cut?
`nope.
What are your feelings on cutters?
`they're cute. :D
Do you suffer from Clinical Depression?
`nope.
Do you have an STD?
`nope.
Have you ever taken illegal drugs?
`nope.
Why or why not?
`._.
Do you smoke cigarettes or drink alcohol?
`nope.
Why or why not?
`._.

Last Questions
Did this quiz make you uncomfortable? nope. not at all. :D
Were you honest? yep.
Are you happy it's over? yep. i need to do something.

`i tag: alec&riva

2009-04-14T01:45:00.001-07:00

Feb 15th, 2009
Its incredibly sad, the last concert they had in Japan together with member Oh Won Bin.
Min Hwan's away. Hong Gi sobs. Jong Hoon cries. Heck, I cry..

This is what they roughly say:
Wonbin (WB): Hello Oricon Style, this is FTI~
Hongki (HK): Ah, I'm Lee Hongki
Jonghun (JH): I am....Jonghun
Jaejin (JJ): I'm the bassist Jaejin~!
WB: I'm Wonbin~
JJ: Its time for the selling of our memories live fan meeting DVD. Btw today were lacking 1 person. Minhwan isn't here because he has to film a drama.
JH: Even though he only has minor role~
All: LOL~
HK: (at JH) You didn't even know when I'm starring a drama!
JJ: I hope everyone can understand (why Minhwan isn't here now) thank you.

WB: Up till now Ive been doing activities with FTI, but now in order to study/pursue a different style of music Ive decided to take a different path (from FTI). But I'm very happy I'm able to come here doing performances with everyone. I really wanted to meet Primadonna Japan too. The new FTI will start activities soon, please look forward to them.

From Hongki to Wonbin:

I think its really nice if you want to pursue the music you want to make. I think we can still meet even if you're not a member anymore, were under the same label anyway (Apparently he is going solo under F&C). You have to work hard, we will support & help you as much as we can.

From Jonghun to Wonbin:

We've been living together for 4 years already and so much had happened during those times. Happy times, sad times, we've had them all but now probably is the saddest one. Of course, its sad when you have to part with your friend who has been staying with you, but please don't be sad everyone. Wonbin's not gonna die anyway, were just parting a bit (everyone haha HK: LOL!!!). From now on please give lots of love for Wonbin.

From Jaejin to Wonbin:

During our activities we've been doing up till now there were lots of memories and now all of them are resurfaced (HK patted JH). Even though Wonbin hyung has decided to leave to pursue his own music (literally: to do things & music he loves), I think it'll be nice if the memories & experiences we've gained together will be useful for the future. It'll be nice when we look back to those memories with laugh/smile. Today Im really grateful we can do a wonderful performance. From now on I wish we can see each other a lot.

From Wonbin to members:

First of all, I want to say thank you. Even though Ive discussed a lot of things during times Im worried about things to you, you guys told me If you want to do the things you like then go ahead, (JH sobs & JJ rubs his thigh) I'm really grateful for that. I hope that from now on FTI will continue to work hard and develop (even more successful than before). I think from now on I will undergo a lot of training (or he wants to visit their dorm? I don't quite understand this part), I want to do it successfully.

JJ: FTI 1st Live in Tokyo Cheerful Sensibility DVD.
All exc. HK: .has been released!
WB: Please support it~
JJ: Everyone please support it~
JH: [something..]
WB: The end! (T/N: or thats all!!)
All exc. HK: We are FTI!!
WB: Bye~
JJ: See you next time~

2009-04-13T23:36:00.000-07:00

i'm so sad. T.T
~~fly to the sky is breaking up.~~
brian and hwanhee are both going solo TEMPORARILY.
~
oh and i started to watch a drama this morning.
fortunately, i finished it at 2:40 this same day. :D
NOBUTA WO PRODUCE. [kamenashi kazuya, yamapi, erika toda and horikita maki's here.XD]

summary: [a bit long]
Kiritani Shuji is the popular guy who gets along with everyone, from the jerks to the nerds to the just plain weird.

He's the one that everyone can count on. However, what they don't know is that Shuji knows how predictable his classmates are and he plays off their predictability to his advantage. His day-to-day existence as "Shuji-kun" is just a facade he uses to play in the school popularity game. Truth be told, Shuji is bored.

The one person Shuji cannot stand is Kusano Akira. Unlike Shuji, Akira is just plain annoying. Akira loves his soy milk so much, he gets drunk from it. He laughs funny, he talks funny, and he acts funny. Nobody in class takes Akira seriously. Shuji can't stand the sight of Akira and it drives him nuts that Akira does whatever he wants despite Shuji's expressed dislike of him.

Shuji has a daily ritual of touching a certain willow tree for good luck. One day, he is startled to find out that his willow tree was uprooted and in its place, a freaky-looking girl telling him that some people took the tree somewhere else to be spotted. She joked that she was planning to hang herself from that tree. Scared, Shuji runs away.

Things heat up when a new student comes to school. Shuji is shocked to find out that the new student was the freaky girl he saw the day his willow tree disappeared. Her name is Kotani Nobuko, a girl who has no self confidence at all and is content at being made fun of and bullied in school.

Shuji and Akira come to an accord that in order to make use of their "youth" they will "produce" Nobuko as the next popular girl. One of the conditions, however, is that nobody should find out that they are working together as a team to make this concept possible.

what's in his bag?

2009-04-13T14:47:00.000-07:00

ever wonder what's in wonbin's bag?
i do.

i really really miss him right now. :/

accomplishments.. :]]

2009-04-13T04:29:00.000-07:00

and.. i just stared at the screen for 2 minutes with my mouth open.
이 음모입니다! as said by Jay. can't April 23 come any faster?!

and oh yea.

i've finished Bloody Monday!
i thought it would be somewhat a happy ending for Takagi Fujimaru, but J was alive and no one knows his whereabouts.

i am nowhere,
and i am everywhere.

how the hell will fujimaru find him?
desperately waiting for a season 2 or sequel. maybe.

yes or no game.. :DD

2009-04-12T14:14:00.000-07:00

Rules: You have to answer the following questions without the use of the words 'yes' and 'no' or any of their variants. For example you can't answer 'nope', 'yep', 'yeah', 'nah', 'mhmm' etc. You can use things like 'I have', 'I do', 'Maybe', 'of course', 'not at all', 'I don't know' etc.

Do you have any pets?
`unfortunately, all my so-called pets are in heaven now. :D
Have you ever been in a long distance relationship?
`uhhh.refer to alecrivachamychainicole for the answer. :]]
Is your local supermarket an Asda?
`what's asda anyways?
Do you know Natalie White? If so, do you like her? What about her music?
`her version of korean songs are good. and plus, because of that, she got to go to korea. :DD
Have you ever made your own item of clothing?
`i have always dreamed of making one.
Do you read often?
`i just bought 4 books this weekend. [that's plenty, right?]
Is your favorite holiday Christmas?
`everyday's a holiday. :D
Will you/did you have a sweet 16 party?
`it's a waste of money.
Are you finding this easy?
`easier than eating. :D
Do you like animals?
`animal-animal or person-animal? :]]]
Do you take surveys just because you're bored?
`sometimes.
Is there someone you would like to be with right now?
`my tkd friends. :D
Ever lost a loved one?
`t'was a long time ago.
Did you go shopping/to the mall this weekend? If so, get anything nice?
`not exactly shopping. but i brought some chocolates, books and [finally] earphones. :D
Do you like energy drinks (Red Bull, Monster, Rock Star etc.)?
`don't know one brand.
Do you smoke?
`and die quickly? don't think so.
Would you try other surveys like this?
`this is fun, sooo, maybe.
Are you almost forgetting you can't say 'yes' and 'no'?
`do you think so? :DD
Do you find this boring?
`my brain is working, so that's something.
Should you be doing something else right now?
`sleeping?
Can you hear any music at the moment?
`fti's new song.
Do you have more shoes than sense?
`unfortunately, sense suits me better. i own few shoes. T.T
Have you taken 500+ surveys on your site?
`i'm NOT that bored.

shortiiee~

2009-04-12T03:40:00.000-07:00

i just DLed FT Island's new songs. :]]
and i'm sooooooo happy. :DD

memories haunts me again.. :]]

2009-04-11T05:40:00.000-07:00

yea, this was the most memorable vid we had this SY 2008-2009.
anthony had a great time describing an animal to the camera, which,
to my friend's dismay, was her.
i am seriously thinking about subbing this. should i?
part 1:

yea, the LCC environment. :]]
feeeeeeel iiiittt~ :]]
about parts 2 and 3, just look it up at youtube. :]]

hi, my name is 2PM.. wth.XD

2009-04-09T01:19:00.001-07:00

OMG. the teaser is really out! :]]
i don't see a difference on jay's hair though.
but well, i'm still open for surprises. :D
i heard that chansung's long hair will be gone. awww, i haven't even touched it yet! :]]
junho and jay.. <33333333
What time is it now? 2PM. :] April 23 y'all. :]]
MTV Iggy

yea, tons of bdays.

2009-04-07T17:48:00.000-07:00

Happy Bday Jonghyun~

and tomorrow.

it's Yamapi's bday too~

10점 만점에 10점

2009-04-07T02:09:00.000-07:00

Otanjoubi omedetou gozaimasu Haru-kun!

April 5

yep, he's the one in Gokusen 3 and koizora. he's starring on Bloody Monday too. so yea, i'm promoting him. but, ~~ONLY LOOK, CAUSE HE'S TAKEN.~~ lol. but anyways, his dramas are <33333.

now i remembered what I told my friend while we were talking on the phone this week. I told her that all of my celebrity crushes' age don't usually go above 23. :]] and i'm right once again.XD haruma-kun's 19. :D [same age as wonbin and jonghun, it's just that korea's way of age is confusing and disturbing.lol.so nvm.]

matsujun kawaii~

2009-04-05T22:16:00.000-07:00

especially around 1:56. *lol*

one down.. uh.. a thousand to go?

2009-04-02T01:03:00.000-07:00

as I expect from myself, i have finished watching another drama today! :D
[if this goes on, i think all of the dramas in mysoju will be finished by me
at the end of April.lol.]

weeelll.
Mei-chan no Shitsuji.

yea, it was good. :D
the girl who played Mei was also in the drama Dance Drill with Takahisa Masuda. ;]]
and now with Hiro Mizushima. [gosh, i envy her.XD]

summary:
The story revolves around a young woman named Mei, who was rescued as a young girl by someone calling himself her "butler." With only a vague memory, though, the experience seems like just a dream. But one day, after her parents' accidental death, he appears: Rihito comes from a line of outstanding butlers, and he has been appointed to serve her! Now her ordinary life has completely flipped, as she discovers that she's actually the heiress to a fortune, and is forced to transfer to St. Lucia Girls' Academy, where all the students have butlers! As a result, her childhood friend Kento decides to enroll in a butler school so that he can stay close to her.

[i liked Kiba [has Izumi as M], Daimon [has Miruku as M], Shinobu [the one with white hair.XD], and oc Shibata Rihito.roflmao.]

starting to watch: Oh! My Girl & Bloody Monday [yey for mokomichi and haruma.XD]
lol. i finished both already.XD

they made my.. night? :]]

2009-04-01T14:32:00.000-07:00

yea, it's 2PM baby..

yea, it's them. :]]
i was just supposed to watch the idol army episode that had FT Island on it.
my friend and I were talking on the phone, and she said she doesn't like 2PM cause one of the members got smug after he has been beaten by minhwan in the arm wrestling game.
so, of course, i check who it is.
it's JAEBUM alec. :]
[but i kinda like him, so sorry. *smile*]
then, after watching that ep, i just kinda randomly picked a vid in the related ones.
then the idol army season 3 with 2PM hosting was there. :]
nichkhun, yea, the staff lovde him so much. [girl staff of course.XD]
they were playing kkungkkungda. [sorry if it's not what it's spelled to be.]
and whoever doesn't answer will get a penalty.
jaebum was wrong, and two black men [they were dressed in black, kinda what the male ballerinas wore] actually put a stocking on his face. :]]
and when the members were trying to remove it, it stretched and his eyes were slanted.
yea, precious. :DDDD

I’m handsome, tall, smart and rich. Can anyone not like me?

2009-03-31T19:29:00.000-07:00

some of the shows i've been watching has ended. :[
so i don't have something to do.
*goes off to hunt for something to watch*

1. KKOTBODA NAMJA

waaaaaaaah! *dreamy eyes*
BOF ended! :[[
now i won't see minho's smile anymore! :[[
but it really made me smile.
it was srsly good. :]
gaeul was indeed a kidnergarten teacher.lol.
[hope yijung and her will be together]
as for jihoo, like jandi, he became a 'prince doctor' :]]
woobin looked cool too.
heck, everyone was cool! :]]
*seriously happy, can't get any happier*

i guess i'll miss Minho every week. :]]
"Geum Jan Di is ... the moon that can never escape the star called Goo Jun Pyo"~

2. WGM [joongbo and hwanyobi couple]

hwanhee and hwayobi were sooo cute.
and even at the end, hwanhee was saying how much he enjoyed hwayobi's company,
and hwayobi cried. :]]
[not that i was making fun of that, hwanhee looked soo <333 consoling her.
and they HUGGED.roflmao.]
hyunjoong and hwangbo however..
i didn't actually find their last ep together.
but i think if i search for it and watch it, i'm gonna be sadder.
so, nvm. :]]
i have watched it, and hyunjoong didn't cry though hwangbo did :D
now, everytime i see 'prince doctor', i smile. :]
WGM is the best! :]]

3. antique bakery [yea, it is the gay movie]

well, it wasn't actually, absolutely a gay movie. :]]
but there was kissing among boys [that didn't gross me out, it made me laugh actually.XD]
and a little mystery. :D

summary:
in-hyuk has money, the looks, the charm, everything except finding the love of his life. So he sets up a cake shop where women are sure to come.
He hires Sun-woo, a talented patissier who had a crush on Jin-hyuk back in high school. Along with an ex-boxing champion Gi-beom and a clueless bodyguard Su-young, the four unique and handsome young men stir up the quiet neighborhood at their cake shop, Antique.

now i look up to the four main actors here. :DDD

ramyeon! :]

2009-03-29T23:31:00.000-07:00

just for organizing purposes, i will post all of what i want to say in one blog.
confusing if i have to post another one again and again.

WOOOOOHOOOOOO!
mai balita ako!! :]]
at saktong sakto pang tama ung pic sa loob. *sighs dreamily*
nadagdagan nanaman ang mga kayamanan ko bilang isang mortal!
at dahil dun, umaapaw ang kasayahan ko. :]]
hulaan nio kung ano un. :D

hindi rin naman ako yung tipo ng tao na madaling magtanim ng poot.
ngunit sa mga pagkakataong ito, maaaring ito rin ay mangyari.
mayabang bako? ha?
hindi naman diba? T.T
kung ano mang mangyari, maging sobrang saya ko man dahil dun,
hindi ko ipamumukha sa ibang tao na, "ai ____ ka ba? ako kasi oo eh!"
...ayun.

SI RIVA CAMILLE JAVIER~ haha. isa sa mga dakilang kaibigan ko.

2009-03-25T19:21:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OH WONBIN!!!

it has been almost 2 years since i have been a fan of your band, FT Island. There is where I first saw you, strumming your guitar and singing with your mellow voice. yea, i was mesmerized, so what?! but then.. [01/28/09]

please come back.
i sit here all alone crying,
thousands of tears falling.
please come back.
only you can make it stop,
only you can cath my every teardrop.
please come back.
i long for you more and more,
can't ignore my heart that's bursting and sore.
please come back.
i can be forever happy when i'm with you,
knowing that my heart beats for you.
please come back, WILL YOU?

not that i'm against seunghyun everybody, it's just, whenever i hear fti's songs like i'm happy, cling and love sick, i can't help but remember wonbin and how he seems happy when he's with the fti boys.
nevertheless, i will still continue to support you 오원빈 and that will never ever change. SAENGIL CHUKAHAE 오원빈, PLEASE BE FOREVER HAPPY. [cause you have made me so so happy. :D]

grad day..

2009-03-25T07:17:00.001-07:00

-brb to edit with pics-
nvm the pics. :]]

tagalog muna ako ngaun ah.
kasi, ayun eh. :]]

March 25, 2009

umaga: natulog ako ng natulog. sobrang kabado ako, sabi ng utak ko, "kinakabahan nako, kinakabahan nako, mamamatai nako.." kasi nga magcocolors kame. parang yung nangyari lang nung recognition day na nagkamali kame. that's yesterday.xD
mga 3 na: nagpapanic nako, kasi wala pa si kua richard, sobrang banas nako nun. sabi ko kay nicole, "alis ka na, now na, dali!" [grabe, taglish un.XD].. kaya ayun, nagtricycle kame at nakalimutan niya magdala ng tempura. :]]
3:30 cguro: kaming apat naman, ako, anthony, che and gemia ung namomroblema kasi wala si jude. antagal nia.XD tapos, nun nandun na xia, biglang bumuhos ung ulan. eh nasa court pa naman kame nun, rinig na rinig sa bubong.. sabi nga ni chame, "nako, challenge talaga yan sa boses mo. goodluck!" :]]
start na: entrance ng mga graduates, tapos doxology. dasal muna kme tapos nakapwesto n kme nun sa likod, tapos nag thumbs-up si kua lui. :] start na. unang nagkamali si dimson, nkalimutan nia na mai kaliwa't kanang balikat ta pa, kaya nag lakad patakda n xia. sunod na mali, tilap hinto ko, pumiyok ako.XD sunod, si gemia, nung tanghal ta na, nakaharap xia sa madlang pipol, eh dapat sa flag siya nakaharap. huling mali, ambagal ni jude maglagay ng flag sa butas, kaia nauna tuloy ako ng baba sa knya.
program proper chuva na: nagliliwaliw nalang kmeng mga cocc. nasa bleachers na kme, ako, nagpsp, nagmp4, kumaen..
bandang tapos na: bumaba na kme para igreet ung mga opisers. nagtalo pa kme kung san nmen sila igigreet. :]] unang nagreet namen, si ate gracia [mejo ndi pako naiiyak.], sunod si ate mhillay [isa ring mabaet], si ate rox na pinatungtong kme sa upuan tska pinag-greet, si kua pit [mabaet din, ndi pako naiiyak nun], sunod si kua dong [eto na un, nung pagkatapos naming magreet, sabi nia, "galingan niong lahat ah!" sabay hawak sa ulo namen, ayun, ndi ko na tuloy napigilan..] sunod si kua lui [umiiyak nako nun, tas pinag-group hug pa.] huling huli si ate dawn, [sobra na hagulgol namen nun, ndi na tuloy ako nakapag greet ng maayos. tas niyakap pa nia kame.].. may iba ring 4th year na nagbye saken, sina ate jean, ate melanie, ate ferel tska si kua bryan..
naiyak pako lalo nung makita ko si anooo.. pinalala pa ni nicole.. tas si irah may sinabi pa saken. :]] buti pa nga siya nakausap nia, ako ni congrats lang hindi ko pa masabi.. :[
KAIA NGAYON NALANG: CONGRATS PO SA LAHAT NG 4TH YEAR NA GUMRADUATE!!!! :]
[nako, kame na next year. T.T]
tska sa mga teachers na aalis, MAHAL NA MAHAL KO PO KAYONG LAHAT, AT SALAMAT SA LAHAT!
[chaka, andrama.XD]

i watched it!

2009-03-24T04:51:00.000-07:00

Jan-di: “I’ve been wanting to ask you something… Why me? I’m not pretty, and I don’t have money, a distinguished name, or anything. Why did you like me?”
Jun-pyo: “Because I have all that.”
Jan-di: “What?”
Jun-pyo: “Money, name, looks — I have all that. I don’t need that from you. All you have to be is Geum Jan-di.”

gosh. sweet.

Jun-pyo: “But do you know what I got for Christmas a few years later? A telescope. That’s when I realized that he didn’t send his gifts and cards, but that his secretary did.”

Jan-di senses his hurt, her smile fading in sympathy. But when he asks, “Do you know what my dream is?” she manages to answer lightly: “Going to watch the stars with your son.”

Jun-pyo laughs, “You’re so simple-minded,” before he says solemnly, “To not make promises I won’t keep. Jan-di. I’m sorry for hurting you.” And then, “I love you.”

NEXT EPISODE:

More teary scenes are ahead for the Goo-Geum couple in KBS2TV Boys Before Flowers as they go through a farewell date. It's amazing that they are filming scenes today which will be broadcast 2 days later. What a packed schedule this drama is running on.

The farewell date was intiated by Jandi who decides to leave good memories behind with Joon Pyo for the last time after Joon Pyo's mum made life difficult for Ji Hoo and Gal Eul.

Joon Pyo was however clueless about the whole situation and told Jandi, "What day is it today? Either it's someone's birthday or someone strike lottery. You (Jandi) initiated the date and didn't pick a quarrel the entire day. It would be great if everyday could be like this." Joon Pyo then said, "I have a request. Why do you not say you like me. I have already said that many times to you", hoping to hear Jandi confess her feelings to him.

Jandi does adhere to his request, "I like you", "I like you to the point that I tried really hard to not like you, and hoping to forget you. But I just couldn't do it no matter how hard I try", which was followed by Jandi leaning over to kiss Joon Pyo shly on the lips. This particular scene had to be filmed 7 times after being interrupted frequently by the strong winds. This farewell date will be shown this coming Tuesday, episode 23 on 24th March.

...will they break up AGAIN then?

i just watched it and YES, they will break up. everything with the bus scene from Meteor Garden happened. T.T stupid witch.
and to think that their date was doing well.. and they would end up like that. T.T

Jandi: Gu Jun Pyo, let's play!!

gaaaaaaaaaah!~

2009-03-17T01:13:00.000-07:00

isn't it cute?!
adorable?!
or anything?!

my friend Nicole had done this a while ago, when we stopped by my house for something important regarding the prom pics. haha.lol. :]]
She's awesome, [yeah, you are.XD] and i adore this. :]]
this pic makes me smile everytime i see this.. i roflmao-ed a while ago when she was making this. dunno why.xD

i as i was browsing DA, i find it really cool. :]
and i saw this: octo headphones and loooooved it! i wish i could buy it, but it's pretty pricey.. T.T
and of course, my hobby, i searched my name in DA and these are what i liked:
Isabelle [another being with such a beautiful name.xD]
with love, from isabelle.
little me?
exactly how i want to be remembered.. :]
i think that's about enough. :D

Mem'ries..

2009-03-14T23:26:00.000-07:00

Saint Rita SY 2008-2009

The end to being a 3rd Year High School kid is getting near. just a few weeks away and it will be our vacation. now, i regret having saying that this was a bad year. IT WASN'T.

BARBARIANS

a word the teachers used to call us for we were so noisy, we hated dull moments, thus, we are sometimes pests. i used to hate our class too, for we were always the root of all the chatters, noise and bad stuff happening in the campus. but i don't care..

though we have our separate ways, we have been able to cooperate. there were tantrums, gossips and objections when we talk, but still, thank you guys for being part of the uber naughty class of 3RD YEAR SAINT RITA. :D

we have proved that even though we don't know much about each other, we could still be one. especially in our play. :D

ALICE IN WONDERLAND

yea, wonderland is really hard. i know. many exploded with anger, many never cared for it, but when it comes down to our final presentation, we gave it our best shot and it turned out well. :D

sa tingin ko nga, gumagaling tayo lalo kpag rush hour na, ung tipong malapit n ung play, tska tayo lahat kikilos. haha.xD

and for our teachers, thanks for bearing with us even though sometimes we're being overboard. thanks for taking care of us, and scolding us. you have made us, barbarians, seem like angels. especially to our beloved adviser, Mrs. Dulce Geronimo, we're very thankful and sorry as well. we have hurt you so many times that i can't even think of how to count them, but still, you were there. that was enough. :D

many teachers are going away this year, and maybe next year, almost all of them will be replaced. though we won't be seeing you again, we still love you guys. :]

special mention: Sr. Gultiano, our commandant in COCC. personally, i don't want you to be replaced by any other teacher by next year. I WILL MISS YOU. i can't express how much that is in writing or in words.

FOR THE CLASS OF SAINT RITA, I LOVE YOU GUYS. I KNOW NEXT YEAR, WE'LL NOT ALL BE CLASSMATES, BUT LET'S REMAIN FRIENDS, SHALL WE? :D

you love me 마법을 걸어봐~

2009-03-14T05:41:00.000-07:00

haha~
i dunno what's the connection of that to my entry.
well, anyways, lemme ask you guys [but i dunno how you will respond]
if a guy looks at you often, does it mean something?
[rather than having a dirt somewhere on your face, just being normal]
argh. seriously, i have problems.
and it will only get worse this monday. DON'T ASK WHY, I MIGHT DIE TELLING YOU.
*thinks of an unending pit of doom*

and cause i'm loving this song so much:

AST'1-Yearning Heart Trans

it's a yearning heart, it's a yearning heart
even if you're by my side, i still miss you
hey, my girl
like glass, it's an uneasy heart to me

it's a yearning heart, it's a yearning heart
even if you're by my side, i still miss you
hey, my girl
like this, i want to place you in my embrace

your smile that is like the sunshine
your fragrance that is like the wind, your warm breath
your bright eyes.. i like it

intoxicated in an armful of happiness
just in case this love will become a dream, or everything will disappear
i tightly hold your hand next to me

(shashala shalallala hey my
shashala shalallala hey my girl
shashala shalallala in my heart)
stay by my side forever

it's a yearning heart, it's a yearning heart
even if you're by my side, i still miss you
hey, my girl
like glass, it's an uneasy heart to me

it's a yearning heart, it's a yearning heart
even if you're by my side, i still miss you
hey, my girl
like this, i want to place you in my embrace

oh~ just looking at you, my heart flutters
seeing me like this, you always laugh
is this what love is? is this what happiness is?
making me open my eyes every morning (you know)

everyday, my heart grows wider
just in case you won't be able to follow me, or that you'll lose the way
i tightly hold your hand next to me

(shashala shalallala hey my
shashala shalallala hey my girl
shashala shalallala in my heart)
stay by my side forever

it's a yearning heart, it's a yearning heart
even if you're by my side, i still miss you
hey, my girl
like glass, it's an uneasy heart to me

it's a yearning heart, it's a yearning heart
even if you're by my side, i still miss you
hey, my girl
like this, i want to place you in my embrace

it's a yearning heart, it's a yearning heart
even if you're by my side, i still miss you
hey, my girl
like glass, it's an uneasy heart to me

it's a yearning heart, it's a yearning heart
even if you're by my side, i still miss you
hey, my girl
like this, i want to place you in my embrace

JUNPYOOOO~
.. oh and a letter arrived for me today..
from syahirah! :]

EARTHSONG~

2009-03-09T03:19:00.001-07:00

FT Island's save the earth song is the best!! :]
jonghun sang first, then jaejin, then seunghyun, lastly hongki.
minhwan didn't sing though. >.<

~♥~

oh and this march 9th of the year 2009 was one of my most embarassing
moments.. EVER. i dunno why i consider it so.
i saw someone from my childhood this day:
nicole: kuya winnie, hindi naman siya pumunta eh. [ hyung, he didn't come.. :( ]
hyung: ayun kaia oh. [ there he is.. ] *points at the front seat of the car*
i stopped. and then, he looked our way. T.T
i ran and said something bad, and yea, my friends laughed at me,
and I'M SURE he looked at me like i was crazy.
but nvm, it's probably the last time i'll ever see him again. :D

gaaaaaaaah. i miss shinee. :D don't we all?

ep 17 BBF~

2009-03-07T03:34:00.000-08:00

..making food. bad food.XDDD

jandi, looking at the cute necklace junpyo has given her. J♥J. just like what jaekyung had made for her and junpyo. hahahaha~ :]]

now, before anyone else does..

2009-03-06T01:32:00.000-08:00

I WANT TO GREET CHOI JONGHUN A PLEASANT 19TH/20TH BDAY!! [March 7,1990] :D

jonghun choi.
a name that pierces through my heart, that whenever i may hear it, i get dizzy.
i get dizzy from nausea just thinking about his pretty face.
whenever i hear the faint melody of his voice from afar, i know it's him.
it's him who captured the ♥ of many fans like me.
strumming his guitar while smiling,
smiling so broad that i can't help but smile too.

jonghun choi.
you're 20 now,
20 years of being absolutely gorgeous,
being absolutely captivating.
i congratulate you for that,
and please promise every pri that you'll never forget us.
because forever, WE'LL ALWAYS BE YOUR PRIMADONNA.

saengil chukahae~ :]

2009-03-01T13:09:00.000-08:00

ugh, definitely my last post for this week. T.T
our finals is coming and i NEED TO STUDY BADLY.
so.. well.. on with the greeting!

HAPPY 19th/20th BIRTHDAY HONGKI!!! :]
~~and to my beloved jonghun and wonbin.soon.~~
with all that happened this and last year,
i really idolize you cause you're strong. :D
CUTE TEDDY BEAR~ :]]
really, you're soo <33333
sorry about greeting you this late, and exams are killing me. >.<

brb on friday to edit further.XD

---------

so yep, i'm back. :]
WITH A RUNNY NOSE.
gaaah, exams are over. finally.
i think i've flunked half of my subjects, and i have 10 of them. T.T
well, back to Hongki.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN!
i have finally realized that you're 20 in korea.
you're growing up hongstar!
and so is.. *sniffs* jonghun. :[[
nvm, i wish you good luck, good health and good career! :D

2009-02-24T13:59:00.000-08:00

Ep. 15 made me cry -___- Especially the part where Junpyo was left behind at the airport and brokedown. I'm glad we got to see this though. I thought it was pretty sweet that his assistant comforted him though (: Also, when Jandi went into Junpyo's room and starting to cry. Ughh ;__; I cried a lot, lmao. I'm really liking Junypo's sister <3 + Jandi singing was adorable. I loved how Junpyo stared at her for a while after she sang.

Ep. 16 was good too. at least gu junpyo and jandi aren't that mad at each other. but ha jaekyung is cute. but TOO annoying, not like jandi which is CUTELY ANNOYING. hoho~ and the stuffed cat junpyo was adorable, i wish i had one just like it.

pictures:
joondi.. spying. :]]
gu junpyo and jandi at the skating rink.
funny ---> I II
they are sooo sweet. :D

2009-02-22T19:02:00.000-08:00

[ Starting time:11:21 am ]

1. Full name: Isabelle Leia ~~daquioag~~ Altavas. :/
2. Nicknames: Isabelle.Isab.Ms.Altavas[only one person calls me this].Leia[don't you dare].and the one my hallabeoji used to call me. :D
3. Birthday: September 14, 1993
4. Age: 15. am i young or what? :/
5. Sex: F
6. Social Security: huh? :]]
7. Home town: i live in a cupboard.
8. Where do you live now: philippines.
9. Zodiac sign: virgo
10. What grade are you in and what school do you attend? 3rd year HS, La Consolacion College DNC
11. Siblings and their ages: nope. i'm the only one.
12. Do you get along: nope. i have quarrels with myself sometimes.
13. Pets: charles. *starts bawling* who died.
14. Righty or Lefty: Righty.
15. Bedtime: 9 pm. i just can't seem to say up late.
16. E-mail: insertsmarteaddhere@yahoo.com

[ YOUR LOOKS ]
17. Hair color: Black.
18. Eye color: Brown.
19. Do u wear contacts or glasses? Nope.
20. Do you have any piercings? ears.
21. Tattoos: don't have.
22. Scars: for now? na-da. [i have 2 sprains.XD]
23. Height: 5'3''
24. Do you wear any rings: nope.
25. What shoes do you wear: sneakers or chucks.

[ JUST LATELY ]
26. Drove a car: can't.
27. Met someone: yea. and she's sweet. <33
28. Done laundry: just a while ago.lol.
29. Cried: this morning.
30. Wore a skirt: ugh. last thursday.
31. How are you today? ..bored?
32. Wearing: a t-shirt and shorts.
33. Thinking about: food. :]]
34. What does your hair look like at the moment? wet and short. :]]
35. What song are you listening to right now? paradise!! :D
36. What was the last thing you ate and/or drank? patties. :3
37. How is the weather right now? sunny and hot. i think so.
38. Last person you talked to on the phone: my mom.
39. Watching: a comedy show in KBS, the one in a sauna. :]
40. What time is it: 11:32 am.

[ DO YOU BELIEVE IN ]
41. Yourself: yep.
42. Friends: yep.
43. Best friends of the opposite sex: sometimes.
44. Santa Clause: i used to. :D
45. Tooth fairy: i used to. haha.xD
46. Angels: yep.
47. Ghosts: nope. :D
48. Aliens: nope.
49. God: of course.

[ MORE ABOUT YOU ]
50. What are the last four digits of your phone number? 8221.
51. Do you like the person who sent you this? yep. :D
52. How do you eat an Oreo? i don't dunk it in milk.
53. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? blue~ :D
54. Have you ever almost died: In my DREAMS! :]]
55. What's the best advice ever given to you: don't lose confidence.
56. Have you ever won any special award: i won a bronze medal in a tkd competition. :]]
57. Do you like to dance?: nope.
58. Worst sickness you have ever had: asthma.
59. What's the stupidest thing you have ever done: i failed a seatwork on purpose. :D
60. Whats the next CD you are going to buy: a Cd of Boys like Girls. :D
61. What sport do you hate the most: table tennis.
62. Place for a dream house: Korea!
63. How many kids do you want to have: 2?
64. Have you ever sprained/broken/fractured a bone: yep. and it hasn't healed yet.
65. Who do you tell your dreams to: my friends.
66. What are you most scared of: rats. :]]
67. How many TVs do you have in your house: 2. :D
68. Do you have your own: nope.
69. Do you have your own phone line: nope.
70. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: yep. when i was about 2. :D
71. Are you a flirty person: no.
72. Are you shy: ahaha.xD i think so.
73. Are you outgoing: not sure. :]]
74. Who is the loudest friend you have: irah.riva. :]]
75. Who is the quietest friend you have: chame.
76. Who looks the worst in the morning: me?
77. Who's the messiest eater: ahahaha.xD *the day of changmin's bday*
78. Who's the slowest eater: alec?
79. Who's the bossiest: we all are sometimes.
80. Who is the 'mom' outta your friends: ..? :]]
81. Who are the top 3 hottest guys/girls you know?: lee dae hyuk~ [and he's in the philippines.XD]
82. Who's the weirdest: all of us?
83. Who is the funniest: :D
84. Who do you go to for advice: it differs.
85. Who do you think about most when you're not online: THEM.
86. Who do you cry with: i cry when no one looks. :D
87. What's the best feeling in the world: excitement.
88. When is the last time you cried: kulet. this morning.
89. Is cheerleading a sport: yea. it can be.
90. How many licks does it take to get to the center of a tootsie pop: 5?
91. Which came first, the chicken or the egg: egg!
92. Root Beer or Dr.Pepper? root beer.
93. Vanilla or chocolate: chocolate~ :33
94. Love or lust: love <33
95. Silver or gold: gold.
96. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping: nope.
97. What's your favorite color: black~
98. What's your favorite band/singer: boys like girls, muse.
99. Who do you dream about: wonbin. haha.lol.
100. Favorite song: keudaewa na/you and i.
101. Do you like to sing in the shower: nope.
102. Had an imaginary friend: nope.
103. Wanted to hook up with a friend: nope.
104. Cried during a movie: yep.
105. Had a crush on a teacher: ahahaha.xD never.
106. What is the first thing you think about when you wake up in the morning: "i want to go back to sleep.."

[ Preference ]
107. Sleep on your back, stomach or side: side.
108. Adidas, Nike, or Reebok: fila. :]] or nike. :D
109. Croutons or Bacon Bits: bacon bits.
110. 2 doors or 4 (on a car): 4. :D
111. Bridges or Tunnels: tunnels.
112. One pillow or two: two.
113. Salt or butter flavored popcorn: butter.
114. Fizzy or still water: still water.
115. Red wine or white wine: red wine.

[ WORD ASSOCIATION - 1ST THING THAT COMES TO MIND ]
117. Rubber Gloves: dissecting!
118. Disney Character: goofy.
119. Fast Food place: KFC.
120. Board Game: the generals.
121. Rock: hard? :]]
122. Blue: sky.
123. Wet: floor.
124. Cry: tears.
125. Peanut Butter: sandwich.
126. Hay: soft?
127. Paper: white.
128. Wood: brown.
129. Yellow:PRIMADONNA~ :D
130. Laugh: teeth. :DD
131. Ugly: me.XD
132. Happy: wonbin~ :]]

[ YOU AND LOVE ]
133. Do you believe in love? yep.
134. Do you have a girlfriend or a boyfriend? nope.
135. Do you have crush? yep.
136. Who is your crush? wonbin.
137. Are you sending this to your crush? how? :]]
138. Do you believe in love at first sight? it depends.
139. What song do you want played at your wedding: can i love you by yurisanga.
140. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with: how can i know this early?
141. Do you find yourself attractive: ahahaha.xD nope.
142. Whats the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? eyes.smile.

[ FOR GIRLS TO FILL OUT ABOUT GUYS ]
144. Long or short hair: a bit long. :]
145. Good or Bad Boy: both?
146. Hat or no hat: no hat.
147. Ears pierced or not: not pierced.
148. Tan or fair: fair.
149. Boxers or briefs: boxers. :DDD
150. Curly or straight hair? straight. [but with junpyo, it can be curly.XD]
151. Tall or short: TALLer than me.
152. Six pack or muscular arms: the first one.XDD
153. Dimples: YEP!
154. Stubble or clean shaven: clean shaven.
155. Glasses: can be.
156. Smart or dumb: smart.
157. Dependent or independent: independent.
158. Rugged or sporty: sporty.
159. Studly or cutie: cutie.
160. What sport should he play? soccer? :]]
161. Accent or not: accent.
162. Your ideal guy: wonbin. :333

[ FOR GUYS TO FILL OUT ABOUT GIRLS ]
163. Long or short hair:
164. Curly or straight hair:
165. Hair up or down:
166. Dark, light, or crazy cool: C
167. Long or short nails:
168. Pants or dress:
169. Good or bad girl:
170. Tall or short:
171. Tan or fair:
172. Glasses:
173. Pretty indoor chick or crazy party chick:
174. Freckles or none:
175. Shy or outgoing:
176. Interesting or dull:
177. Funny or always cool:
178. Talkative or shy:
179. Your ideal girl:
180. Mrs.Sensitive or Mrs. Funny:
181. Sporty or elegant:
182. Bikini or full piece bathing suit:
183. Hot, Sexy or cute:

[ WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU... ]
184. Took a shower: a while ago.
185. Watched Bambi: a long time ago. :DD
186. Got a real letter: last december.
187. Wished upon a star: when i catch a glimpse of one.
188. Asked someone for forgiveness: tomorrow.
189. Hugged someone: this morning.
190. Kissed someone: this morning.
191. Ate something: a while ago.
192. Called someone: a while ago.

[ WHAT IS YOUR... ]
193. Good luck charm: my watch.
194. Bedroom like: clean.
195. Favorite Breakfast food: eggs and bacon. :3
196. Favorite lunch food: anything.
197. Best thing that happened to you today: no classes.XD

[ WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT THE FOLLOWING ]
198. Abortion: illegal.
199. Homosexuality: okay.
200. Rap: wonbin~ :D
201. Classical: pehm.
202. Oldies: hallabeojis~
203. Swing: dance.
204. 80's: cool.

[ PICK ONE: THIS OR THAT ]
205. Lights on/off: Lights off.
206. Sun, rain or snow: Rain.
207. Mickey D's or BK: BK.
208. Do you like scary movies or happy movies better: scary movies.
209. Backstreet boys or N*Sync: ...?
210. On the phone or in person: in person.
211. Summer or winter: Winter.
212. Chocolate or white milk: Chocolate.
213. Cd or tape: CD.
214. Hugs or kisses: Hugs.
215. Cake or pie: Cake.
216. Cats or dogs: Dogs!
217. Mud or jello wrestling: Mud!
218. Skiing or boarding?: Boarding!
219. Day or night: Night.
220. Sunset or sunrise: Sunset.
221. Diamond or pearls: Diamonds.

[ YOUR FAVES ]
222. Candy: mentos.
223. Beverage: Starbucks Choco Chip.
224. Cartoon characters: spongebob.
225. Sport(s): badmenton.tkd.
226. Song: kill me in a record shop.
227. Favorite actor or actress: lee minho <33
228. Favorite movie: saw. :D
229. TV show: Star golden bell.
230. Favorite food: ..plenty.
231. Ice cream: Cookies and Cream.
232. Subject: science.
233. Shampoo: clear. :]]
234. Favorite month: march.
235. Favorite numbers: 27.03.07.26.
236. Favorite person to talk to online: friends.

[ HAVE YOU EVER... ]
237. Cut your hair yourself: yep.
238. Been on stage: yep.
239. Had a new kids on the block tape: nope?
240. Ever thought an animated character was hot: yep. :DD
241. Kept a secret from everyone: yep.
242. Been hurt emotionally: yep.
243. Been in a car accident: nope.
244. Put a body part in fire for amusement: my finger.XD
245. Drank: nope.
246. Smoked: nope.
247. Broke the law: nope.
248. Ran from the cops: nope.
249. Made yourself cry to get out of trouble: yep.
250. Tried to kill yourself: nope.
251. Made your self throw up: yep. i think so,
252. Been in love: yep.
253. Loved someone so much it made you cry: YES.

[ RANDOM QUESTIONS ]
254. What is the best "unexpected thing?": depends.
255. The most common use for Vaseline: hair?
256. What was the name of your childhood blanket: didn't have one.
257. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping: nope.
258. Who is the last person that you got mail from: imageshack.us :]]
259. Have you ever been convicted of a crime?: nope.
260. Make 3 Wishes: berich.gotokorea.have3morewishes.xD
261. Which stores would you choose to Max your credit card: every store.XD
262. What do you do most often when you are bored: read.
263. Funniest thing: people sneezing. i dunno why.XD
264. Humiliating Moments: slipping in front of everyone. :]]
265. Can you touch your nose with your tongue: nope.
266. Worst memories: 2nd year.
267. Best memories: grade 6. :D

[ ONE FINAL NOTE ]
268. Who sent this to you: .. :D
269. Name one nice thing about the person who sent this too you: sweet <33
270. Do you like filling these out: yep.
271. How many people are you sending this too: anyone who wants to.
272. Do you want you friends to write back: yep.
273. Who will respond to this email fastest: i dunno.
274. Who is the least likely to respond: ..?
275. What is the first thing that comes to mind: food? :]]
276. Who would you say you can trust most? my.. notebook. :D
277. Did you ever use a girl to make someone jealous: nope.

[ Finishing Time: 12:07 pm ]

oh nothing..

2009-02-20T03:47:00.000-08:00

very tiring day..
uhh, just so everyone knows, we are RETARDS. [i mean, my friends and me]
we have this notebook [my friend's] and we write up all our fantasies, talks with OUR hubbies, rants, or anything that can express what we feel that day.

but before you read them, here's a serenade from my husband: lol.
jonghun's song

♡since jan. 28, 2009♡

please come back..
i sit here all alone, crying,
thousand of tears falling.
please come back..
only you could make the hate stop,
only you can catch my every teardrop.
please come back..
i long for you more and more,
ignoring my heart that's bursting and sore.
please come back..
i can be forever happy when i see you,
knowing that my ♡ beats for you..
please come back, will you?

♡you are absolutely nothing to me,
i love you, do you care for me?♡

you are nothing to me.

every sight of you makes me swoon,
just like an up-close encounter with a glistening full moon.

you are nothing to me.

everytime you strum your guitar with your fingers,
every note you play still lingers.

you are nothing to me.

notorious as you may seem,
i always think of you as a fragment of my dream.

you are nothing to me.

i may be a fool for acting this way,
thinking about you every night and day.

you are nothing to me.

i am willing to wait for you,
to prove that what i feel for you is true.

you are nothing to me.

each and everyday, i love you even more,
you're an unknown part of my life which i can't wait to explore.

you are nothing to me.

some may say you're stupid and full of shit,
that's just the unpleasant bit.

you are nothing to me.

the most unnoticable cute thing you do,
makes me fall head over heels for you.

you are nothing to me.

when your eyes meet mine i will surely melt,
a feeling that can't be surely dealt.

you are nothing to me.

i'm not used to feeling this way,
and it's hard to keep my feelings at bay.

you are nothing to me.

i can't stand a day without looking at your face,
i know that what i'm doing can make a normal person grimace.

you are nothing to me.

being with you makes me so content,
my happiness can come to an extent.

--♡♡♡more to come♡♡♡--

boys over flowers..?

2009-02-16T00:29:00.000-08:00

ahaha.xD
i'm not really a fan of this up until now. Ü
i just finished reading battle royale this morning..
[and that's one in my need to do list.] haha.XD
boy, will i miss kiriyama, mimura and sugimura. :3
i've always liked mimura and seeing how he died,
his intestines were showing and kiriyama shot his foot and so on..
makes me sad.

go for the clutch shot, shuu!

awwww. :[

after that, i was thinking of watching anna-san no omame, but,
well, i remembered BOF since my friends in school have been
bugging me to watch it. :]]
i'm still up to latest ep now and it's really good.
[do i have to keep updating the episode no?XD there. problem solved.]
lol so much at gu jun pyo.XD
being scared of a bee~ :]]
this is one of the instances wherein i like the lead actor more.
i tell you, it's rare. i usually go for the one who doesn't get
picked at all. :]]
curly hair is so in!~ Ü
and kimbum.. Ü oh nothing. :]]
jun pyo!~ gaaah! you can't do that to jan di!
the necklace the necklace!!! :[[
and jandi, ~~don't fall for jihoo again, i want you to be with jun pyo!~~~

jandi: i am..
jun pyo: a stain i want to erase..

oh my gosh junpyo, go soak your head in a bucket full of roaches! >.<
but even though,

junpyo: she's the first woman i've ever loved since i was born.

JUN PYO! RUN BACK TO HER!
COME BACK! *emotional*
i knew it! that witch made you promise something brutal! *remembers HYD and MG*
gosh, episode 14 is soooo sad~
but the last part was kinda funny, about this guy jihoo used to know,
and it looks like he likes him.XDDDDD

director: i told you just to touch lips, but why are you opening?

ahahahah.XD
caught~ :DD

lists

2009-02-15T02:54:00.000-08:00

going back to this;May 18,09

MY WISHES

♫to own a branch of SM. :]]
♫to become a hairstylist or maybe even a model. [lol.]
♫to have superior knowledge of all things.
♫to be like adolf hitler who can persuade people to do whatever he say
♫to have all of my fave bands' CDs.
♫to be good in math. [help mee.]
♫to own even one decent music player, cause right now, mine sucks.
♫to have my own PC. [maybe ten years from now, this will come true. oh, the wait.]
♫to own a jet plane [so traveling to other countries will be easy]
♫have shoes i like!!!!

NEED TO DO:

♫~~need to finish our project in computer [with alec, riba and the pretty one.XD haha.]~~
♫finish reading all of my new books.
♫~~to have a decent haircut.~~ finally!
♫~~to sort out all my requirements~~ school's over.XD
♫to be a black belter sooner.
♫~~make my who-i-want-to-die list.~~
♫make my who-i-want-to-have list, lol.
♫the backpack i saw in the mall last last last month.XD
♫buy a GOOD camera.
♫~~finish reading battle royale [oh the gore.xD]~~

just wanna greet everybody..

2009-02-14T02:28:00.000-08:00

A VERY HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!<333
i don't have anyone to spend this day with. BUT even though, i received something!
a heart-shaped balloon, a little teddy bear and chocolates from my friends! :D
i'm so glad i have friends like them. ~~and it will JUST be friends, nothing more, nothing less.~~ and i saw somebody..♥
i'm addicted to a song from FTi nowadays. it's You and I. or maybe i'm just biased cause jonghun sang there.XD whatever.XD
...is liking 송승현 and their new [for me] band bad? cause i think so. i feel like i'm abandoning 오원빈 and leaving all his memories with them to deal with later.
maybe that's why whenever i see a picture of him, read what he said last, and hear his voice, i tear up a little. :[
오원빈 saranghae yeongwonhi~